Third, though, is that Lelouch wanted to ruin Euphemia and be a hero and he DID want to kill her, all the way back in the hotel. Oh sure, he cried after the fact, but can you even be certain that he's crying for her? I don't think he is. Not Lelouch. He's crying because things didn't go down the way he wanted. When he kills her, all he says to himself is "you may have been the first girl I ever loved." He didn't spare a single thought to her passing, and I do not regard using her the way he did and then profiting from the absolute violation of all his sister had striven for "the least" he "could do" for her.
He did it because he wanted it done, and it was conveniently laid out for him. He'd already demonstrated wanting each and every aspect of what happened in episode 22 prior to what actually did happen. As to whether or not he always wanted destruction, I disagree with that, too. Lelouch talks a big talk about bringing down the system and making a better world and such, but that isn't what this is about. This is about killing the King of Quaker Oats becauseThis isn't about anything BUT revenge, and it isn't about anyone BUT Lelouch. He's a vile, petty, slimy, selfish person, and it explains every move he has made thus far, right down todaddy didn't acknowledge him when he was little, and because he can't accept the fact that DADDY KILLED MOMMY and didn't give a damn about HIM.wiping Shirley's memories of him, which I'm sure he found very noble, even if it was the stupidest move ever.
Lelouch is the villain, through and through.
Lelouch's "ends justify the means" attitude would make him the villain in most things. But I think the events here show that while it's a stance he wants to take, he's not so emotionally dead that he can do all this stuff with a clear conscience. That might become more obvious as the end of the first season plays out.
It's a hamfisted metaphor, but Lelouch sees his actions as Zero as analogous to his chess match. In chess, the only metric worth anything is whether an action brings you closer to trapping your opponent's king, while keeping your king safe. There's no room for emotion, and pieces ought to be sacrificed for the "greater good" of victory. His initial plan in Episode 22, on a strictly intellectual level, is just another part of that. Things spiral out of his control, but even as he tries to turn it to his advantage, he also discovers that there are sacrifices he can't make so easily. However, he isn't given a choice (
sparing Euphemia would not have ended well for anyone
Trust me, when Lelouch disposes of a piece in his life for purely selfish reasons when things aren't going according to plan, he's not very subtle about how he feels.