AnoHana
~fin
I cried. I cried. I've never cried watching an anime. They're cartoons, they're not real. But they are real. They're as real as you want them to be. As I'm typing this, all I can think of is my friend who commited suicide three years ago. She was one of my best friends growing up. Although we only met once in person, she was my other half, like a sister. She got me through my childhood and teenage years. My family moved four times in six years, state to state. I never had a long enough period to make friends, but Julie was there for me. When my father suddenly passed away when I was 17, she was there. When I failed out of college and was incredibly depressed, she was there. The guilt I felt. I wish I had her back. I wish I could talk to her like in this show. I wish I could tell her so many things. I wish.
Questionable motives be damned. This anime moved me like nothing has moved me in years. I haven't cried since my father passed away, ten years ago. Over a damn anime. I can barely see what I'm typing. Fuck. I think I was holding this in.
Thank you. I'm not sure why I decided to watch this show, I think it was because I saw a post a few pages back where someone mentioned it. So, thank you.
It feels good.
/blog
Edit: Wow, this might be too heavy. Sorry.