Man fuck all that feeling sorry and frustrated for myself shit. I know my main issue is that I'm way too hard on myself and I tend to think too much. I get urges to do things, but I "think" myself out of doing it. "Oh I should practice my combos in Marvel"
*I'll never get any good. And honestly, trying to be good at a game is pathetic* "Oh I should start writing something."
*Writing never helps. And who would like what I write?* "I should get on the family treadmill."
*It's too hot. Besides, what good will it do?*
Well, fuck all that. I'm acting on pure impulse now. When I think about drawing, I'm going to draw. When I get an idea, I'm going to write it out. When I think about Marvel, I'm going to practice till my combos are crispy and my fingers are bleeding. And with God as my witness, whenever I think about how I want to lose weight, I'm going to get off my lazy ass and go get on that freaking treadmill.
Sorry about the slightly random outburst guys, but I've been thinking a lot about my life these last couple days and I realized that it's been forever since I did something for myself. My whole life is about pleasing others, and I'm sure that's why I'm struggling to do these goals. I realized how poisonous this is to my life, and now I have a real "Fuck Yeah! Go Me!" attitude because I really want to overcome this and learn to do things for myself.
Anyway that's my spiel for the morning. Now for dem updates:
ReiGun said:
Username: ReiGun
Types of Goals: Fitness, Games, Drawing, Movies, Reading, Writing
Specific Goals: Lose at least 15 pounds. Finish at least three of the games in my backlog (also adding doing at least 30 min of combo drills in Marvel and Arcana Heart a day). Draw one picture a day. Go out and see at least one movie a week (alone is fine, but with a group is preferable). Get through my netflix instant queue. Read at least two books. Write a short story
Updates: Weekly
Daily Goals: A picture a day. Netflix movie a day. Go to the gym at least twice a week.
Written Out: Yes
Deadline: August 29 (when fall semester starts)
Fitness: Decided to cut out juices and sodas completely. Nothing but good ol' H20. Beginning to slowly eek out snacks. I've decided to personally handle the grocery shopping for the family since no one else seems to want to, and I know half the reason I buy some much junk is that it's cheap and I have to eat something. I've also taken to walking places whenever I can as opposed to riding the bus. I know it's not a full on workout schedule, but every little bit counts.
Games: No games really. I played a little Marvel here and there, but for the most part, nada. Going to be playing SMB3 when I get home tonight (I've never beaten it.)
Drawing: Still doing some skeletal drawings in the hopes of finally learning to properly draw the human figure. Any artists out there have any tips for this? I also bought some new pencils and a wooden model.
Movies: A friend and I saw X-Men: First Class this past weekend. Good stuff. As for netflix, been in an anime mood of late. Watched Baccano, Sengoku Basara, and Casshern Sins basically back to back. Taking a break from that to watch some documentaries: namely this PBS series about art in the 21st century called "Art: 21"
Reading and Writing: Starting reading "Halting State" again. It's okay. I also have this book of the teachings of Buddha (called, what else, "The Teachings of Buddha") that I read on the bus and at work in the mornings. And I'm actually about to write in my journal as soon as I finish typing this.
And that's that. I hope everyone else is doing well. Keep at it guys.
