Would be a case study in how to actually keep everyone sorted out properly rather than "if you're not dressed up for a night on the town you must not be trans!" though!Or maybe you are the ONLY people who has the infamous Autogynephilia =O
Thanks for setting trans rights a few years back ¬¬
xD
I hope to give the money to a trans person who has a good physical foundation for HRT/transition to be effective, but lacks the finances to get the ball rolling. I feel like that would give me some small measure of joy and satisfaction before I check out.
This is the kind of thing that is invisible to the eyes =P
After seeing the rest of your post, please don't neglect this. Also be sure to look at the phone numbers in this thread. We all get in bad spots and worry about how we can cope with what we are given how cruel this world can be, but I'm sure you can ultimately pull through.As a birthday present to myself im going to finally go see a therapist.
So you want to give your savings to someone who barely need it ? =P
After seeing the rest of your post, please don't neglect this. Also be sure to look at the phone numbers in this thread. We all get in bad spots and worry about how we can cope with what we are given how cruel this world can be, but I'm sure you can ultimately pull through.
After seeing the rest of your post, please don't neglect this. Also be sure to look at the phone numbers in this thread. We all get in bad spots and worry about how we can cope with what we are given how cruel this world can be, but I'm sure you can ultimately pull through.
Don't worry, im not an immediate suicide risk.
In addition to wanting to finish college the suicide clause on my $200,000 life insurance policy is still in effect for another 11 months. I simply cant justify killing myself now when I can wait one more year and leave my family with all that money.
I'd like to echo these sentiments.
Well, just that suicide is in your plans in general. I'm sure there's solutions for you to be happy. Or rather, I'd like to believe or help figure such a solution out.
Paxil really did help for me, even if I wonder if I should be using a different one. I was resistant to taking any, but my situation is too crappy currently to not try them.Thats why I plan to talk it out with a therapist. Hopefully we can figure out some sort of alternative treatment that helps, be it chocking me up full with anti-depressants, chemical castration, etc.
Obviously ymmv with all things HRT, but generally speaking someone who is 5'6 with a slight build and softer facial features is going to fare much better than one who is >6' with massive shoulders, a huge ribcage, clown feet, and a giant skull.
Well, you just described me, except for the height (5'9"). No wonder I am always anxious when changing at the gym lockers and thinking if they haven't noticed or they don't care.
Science and medicine just isnt there yet unfortunately. And until it is there will always be people with bone structures that all the HRT and surgery in the world can't salvage. I know my own body well enough to know it's a lost cause. I just have to hope I can find some other way to manage.
(and therefore you are fucking with everyone's dysphoria or worst)
I'll shut up then and go away. I'm sorry.
I had not heard from Alana since she left the forum I was at, until recently though FB I found out that she had managed to crowdfund the rest of her transition.
I would a before after here, but I have had my fair share of problems with posting in public places. I'm not enforcing an active stealth, but I do try to keep everything from the past on a hard drive after I appeared in one collection of B-A a few images under the marine.
And btw, BA is fairlu useful for balancing wide shoulders and ribcage. I had an 87 cm underbust with no fat and I was worried that my torso looked all male.now at least you can't see the original shape. My big body issue is that all the other women at the gym look "soft" and "rounded". Since my body only stores fat at the mangut I look like a long distance runner who also lifts weight. College has a bigger priority than liposculpting in my list, though.
Er.. Hello. Don't think I've posted in here before. Past year or so has been a bit of a mental rollercoaster for me. Had some revelations and acceptances with myself over the while.
Always been a thing in the back of my head for as long as I can remember, but... I just don't think I completely identify as male... not very much, at least... Never been happy with how 'I am,' nor my body... So, I had to talk to my boyfriend about all that... talked to a few people on here as well, which has been a big help.
But yeah.. Had a doctor appointment last week and discussed things, like possible HRT... they scheduled me another doctor appointment and therapist appointment in the next couple weeks or so to see where to go from there.
Hi Firehead (is that how you're prefer to be called? also preferred pronouns for now?)! I hope whatever path you go down, be it hrt or otherwise, you are able to find a good solution and be happy in your own skin. : )
Yeah, 'Firehead' is okay. I've just been going by that and my name, 'Joe' or 'Jo' for now (Though, do kinda prefer 'Jo'...), as well. And for the time... whatever pronouns, I guess? Do kinda prefer a bit more neutral pronouns at the moment, but yeah... Thank you.
Well it's not as if either comic sans or papyrus are supported fonts so only so much one can do there....this pretending like we're in Undertale isn't going to be something that continues, is it?
Just over a month until I head to Japan for a couple of weeks. I'm kinda nervous about the whole thing, even if I am planning on staying within metropolitan areas (Tokyo and probably Sendai). First time I've been on a foreign holiday since coming out as well.
...this pretending like we're in Undertale isn't going to be something that continues, is it?
Well it's not as if either comic sans or papyrus are supported fonts so only so much one can do there.
Just over a month until I head to Japan for a couple of weeks. I'm kinda nervous about the whole thing, even if I am planning on staying within metropolitan areas (Tokyo and probably Sendai). First time I've been on a foreign holiday since coming out as well.
Have you been to Japan before?
I wouldn't worry about it too much. Japan is the kind of place where people will almost never show any dislike/disapproval to your face, and even if the country's deeper acceptance of LGBT people is pretty bad, on a casual level they're pretty accepting. Just know that, even in Tokyo, you may get attention simply for being a foreigner in the country, so don't always assume such attention is instantly connects to your being trans.
My last trip was the first time I went back since going full time, and right off the plane I had to both explain that I was trans, and that I was girls' loving it up with one of their native daughters. The result was an apology from the immigration lady for not having understood my situation quicker. So, with that kind of stuff, my advice is to be honest and explain the situation should any problem arise, and things should defuse rather quick.
I totally get the sticking out as a foreigner, though. I'm 6'2", and I was that height when I was last there. I was the tallest person at the school I attended, and was frequently the tallest or among the tallest at every public transport stop I passed through.
I lived in Japan for a few months in 2005 as part of a student program. I've already explained in a letter to my host family of a decade ago about what happened since I left the country. When I subsequently rang them (I had misplaced the phone number before finding it again), they correctly identified me by name despite my masculine voice and were overjoyed to hear from me.
I'm prepared to explain being trans to immigration, I got my passport fully up-to-date specifically for this holiday.
Er.. Hello. Don't think I've posted in here before. Past year or so has been a bit of a mental rollercoaster for me. Had some revelations and acceptances with myself over the while.
Always been a thing in the back of my head for as long as I can remember, but... I just don't think I completely identify as male... not very much, at least... Never been happy with how 'I am,' nor my body... So, I had to talk to my boyfriend about all that... talked to a few people on here as well, which has been a big help.
But yeah.. Had a doctor appointment last week and discussed things, like possible HRT... they scheduled me another doctor appointment and therapist appointment in the next couple weeks or so to see where to go from there.
Huh. Really lame if that indeed turns out to be the case. I think I called Caitlyn one too.Was Beth banned the other day for supporting calling Caitlyn Jenner an idiot in another topic?
: /
Been seeing lots of trans-individuals or trans-allies banned lately on Gaf.
Huh. Really lame if that indeed turns out to be the case. I think I called Caitlyn one too.
Not sure why she was banned but that was the last thing she had posted about before being banned. : /
I don't mind if people call her an idiot. My opinion isn't the highest of her either but I already covered the nuances of my view in a post over on Letters Gaf when I rarely stop by there.
Duckroll actually answered this in the Gundam thread---she simply requested a ban due to family issues.
...and that's a great way to enter the thread since as of yesterday I finally told my family I'd been having these thoughts for quite awhile and might actually try and pursue them, though at this point I think going to a gender therapist (if I can find one where I live) is the best course of action since I have so many questions. Glad to get it off my chest though.
Thank you. ^^ And yeah, guess I'm still figuring some things out, but am certain on others... ^^;Welcome to the thread!
It almost sounds like you're either neutrois or just nonbinary as a whole, which is perfectly fine.
Do what you have to do to be happy and comfortable with and within your own body, as long as no self harm is involved.
Well hi there.
Enjoy your stay and glad to meet you
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Cheers ^^