GAF, I've been going through hell for 4 weeks. I've been dizzy beyond fucking belief.
I first went to my doctor in Manchester 3 weeks ago, complaining about dizziness, which was coinciding with a spell of anxiety I was going through. This was probably down to moving to a new city and being a bit terrified about it.
My doctor, appearing at first to care, did my blood pressure, despite me saying my readings were always higher at doctors (I have "
White Coat Hypertension" ), and, of course, it was very high (167/100 or something like that). Alarm bells started ringing, despite me saying it was only high on visits to doctors. I was referred to have my blood tested and an ECG, both of which came back perfectly (as I said they would).
I suggested taking readings at home with a home-kit blood pressure monitor, which I did for a week, coming in at perfectly fine average of 127/78 (120/80 is perfect).
That's when my surgery in Manchester gave up on me. The fopped me off to some mental health care facility, saying that my rapidly worsening (and now constant) dizziness was "all in my head" and "down to anxiety". This was so fucking scary. I couldn't go out, I couldn't drive. I was so scared, what if I would be like this for the rest of my life? I withdrew from life, spending all day in bed, only kept company by my sympathetic GF and GAF.
My parents clearly agreed that it was anxiety, and said that I needed to stop being so soft (obviously less bluntly than this). They took me home (by this point I'd been dizzy for 3 weeks) to Wales, where I've been for the last week, insisting that taking my mind off things would make me better, but it had been getting worse and worse. They were doing a presentation of WRC Cars last night in Llandudno and I felt so dizzy and disorientated with all the revving. When would it end?
I felt so, so fucking alone. Everyone thought I was mental but I kept saying it's a health problem, that I was used to anxiety and I'd never had dizziness before. My GF, my parents, my doctors, all thought I was losing it. Words can't describe how lonely this made me feel.
Against everyone's advise I went to a doctor in Llandudno, a hail mary move. I didn't know what I'd do if they couldn't find anything. Maybe I should be committed? The dizziness feels so real.
I went this morning. I have a massive ear infection.
Cunts. At least I'll get better now.