Not kidding. Someone mentioned it earlier in the thread, i'll see if I can find it; hopefully they image captured it.
edit: see above
Wooooow.
I just read his entire article. A lot of random stuff comes to mind, but possibly the most notable is Benson's total lack of gratitude.
I should preface this by saying that I obviously don't know the people involved. I'm not saying Alec was a saint, and it sounds like he definitely had his demons. And I recognize that Benson is also probably going through some crazy shit right now. I wish him well. I could be totally wrong about everything.
But, it skeeves me out how much Benson blames Alec for everything that was difficult about indie game dev, and how little gratitude he shows for the things that went right. And it sounds like A LOT went right. They completed an indie game! They got a publisher! They found an audience and found success! It did well enough that he apparently gets to make more! None of those are small things, and none of them should be taken for granted. The essay makes it sound like Alec did all the programming, created all the tools, and composed all the music. Art is important, and dialogue is important, but a self-professed amateur like Benson simply walking into a scenario where everything else was taken care of for him is uncommon. A lot of people never get an opportunity like that, and Benson writes about it like it's nothing.
He talks about how Alec convinced other people to take risks. To move across the country, to give up their day jobs to make indie games, etc. And how he'd often abandon those projects partway through, leaving his teammates hanging. He then credits himself for getting A Night in the Woods finished. This is believable, but again, not uncommon. Most indie projects never get finished. Lots of them never even go public. People take risks on indie games all the time, and most of those risks never pan out. This doesn't make anyone involved a bad person. It's just the nature of the beast. Anybody getting into indie dev should recognize these risks, and plan accordingly.
Near the end of his essay, Benson says he "survived Alec Holowka." That's one of the tackiest things I've ever read. Again, I'm sure Holowka had his demons. He sounds like he was a legitimate asshole at times. I don't doubt that he hurt people. But he's also the guy that put Benson on the map. He's the guy that programmed Benson's game, and the guy that got Benson to pursue his dream. At the end of all that, Benson is now the one who gets to reap the rewards of that, while Alec is dead, and Benson still tries to paint himself as a victim.
I don't know what the point of any of that was. Like I said, I wish him the best. But he comes across selfish and ungrateful, and certainly not anyone that should be looked up to.