I'd like to add a bit onto the post that I had Phenom post for me yesterday when i was banned. For now, I think this reflects my thoughts, and there is plenty more that will be said another time.
Over the last two years, this game has been an emotional rollercoaster for me. Bungie created a world where you meet new people and go out on adventures to become legends. But what really makes you legendary is not how high your light is or how good you are at the game, but how many people you leave an impression on along the way.
DestinyGAF is not just a tight-nit community, but a family - forged in the fires of the now distant Alpha - and it has been burning ever since. There are many pillars of this community - some have moved on and some have remained - and they have each contributed to making this community what it is today. But if there was one who constantly went out of his way, relentlessly extending a helping hand to anyone who needed it, it was Dr Drizzay.
Drizzay put the D in DestinyGAF. The community that exists today through all its ups and downs is very much his own. If the entirety of DestinyGAF were in a clan, he was its leader. He was a literal example of what a Guardian should be. But now, that Guardian is down.
The outpouring of support for Drizzay from various corners of the internet has shown just how many people his light reached. People who didn't even play with him have felt his warmth, and everyone has a positive story to share about their time with him.
I have very fond memories of the moments I shared with him, however, I am not proud of our last encounter. It was in May during a Trials of Osiris run. I had grown frustrated and stopped doing my best. He sensed that and encouraged me to do better - because that is the kind of person he was. He never got upset with you, but he would always call you out if he knew you weren't doing your best. Unfortunately, I did not heed his words and he then said to me "It's okay if you are not feeling up to it." This was someone who always looked forward to playing with me every weekend, and on that day, I let him down.
Drizzay's untimely passing reminds us that he was human. Even though his machine-like operation and omnipresence said otherwise, he'd get frustrated at the game the same as I or anyone would and even he'd take the occasional break And he'd be the first person to tell you to stop playing if you were not having fun.. But he would then spend hours watching over his footage or studying the game mechanics to learn its ins and outs so that he could learn from his mistakes and teach others. His unwavering dedication to not just the game, but to everyone in its community is what will make him immortal. It's that selfless commitment that he leaves behind, inspiring all of us to be better.
Drizzay did everything. He was up bright and early to lead reset Raids and on later in the week to help fill the last spot. He sherpa'd countless guardians through Skolas, and then he'd hop on over to anchor an Iron Banner train.. He carried people to the lighthouse week after week, and even started playing on other player's accounts, challenging himself with unfamiliar builds. He even helped people with quests, and he wouldn't complain when you booted up the quest again after realizing that you were doing the wrong one halfway through. You'd have a hard time finding someone here who didn't have a trophy or achievement that he wasn't involved in here. Because at the end of the day, he was always here. He would always take the time to share strategies and tips, and always looking for the next person who needed a helping hand. How many OTs has he diligently coordinated and posted for us now? Again, this community is very much his. He took it by the reigns and said "I care about these people" and he never let us down. Not once. The biggest mistake we have all made is in believing that he would always be here.
What I will remember of him most fondly is actually not even related to Destiny. It was the day I played through the Halo 5 Campaign with him and Unstable. We were shooting the shit and talking about everything except Destiny, and it made me realize that this isn't a community that exists solely to LFG or argue over what the best class in the game is. We're friends, and many of us have created real, meaningful and life-long bonds from this game that transcend its boundaries.
I am humbled to have known someone like him. Really, we should all be so lucky. His light reached everyone. Even Bungie themselves:
I lost someone I would consider a mentor. Someone who would always praise me for my ability at the game, but then he'd turn around and surpass me. I felt like I would always learn something new when I played with him. His presence was otherworldly. Nobody else could jump into a lobby and make you feel like everything would be fine. When Drizzay was around, you knew shit was going to get done. And even when it did not, he would be there the next day to make sure it did.
I wrote this poem a while ago when I was going through a rough time. I think it speaks to the kind of man he was:
Bright flames dont burn for long, their light too strong to last
The ashes scatter in the wind, and darkness comes to pass
But in that moment, though brief and rare, no shadows will you find
For just as brightly as you burned, your glow you will leave behind
Luke Smith said it best. He didn't need to become a legend. He was already legendary.