My mind still cannot comprehend that this is actually happening. It's completely surreal.
I watch and rewatch the trailer, and every time I'm transported back in time to those days when this was just a far off dream, an item in every fanboy's wishlist for every E3, a recurrent joke, a meme.
I always knew that the remake would happen eventually. To me, it was not a question of "yes" or "no", but "when".
Then Verendus' post about the remake being real, and having seeing it with his own eyes increased my hype. I believed him completely.
However I thought the remake was not in active development but rather in super early planning stages as some sort of "emergency backup plan" in case Square was facing difficulties and needed their "final ace in the hole".
Then the rumors started appearing just before Sony's conference at E3 2015. Several gaming outlets had claimed that their independent sources were confirming the presence of the remake at the conference.
Although I was certain that the remake was the real deal, I refused to believe they would should it so soon. I was sure that we would get our very first glimpses of it at 2017, at the very earliest.
I remember that day. I was watching the E3 conference at the office (Sue me), but I had to leave for home. I was on a car ride home, I was trying to update the Live Blogs on my cell phone, but none were working. Then suddenly my brother starts sending me WhatsApp texts like crazy, like
"AFIOPASGFVPOJSF=?Q$%%")=(F".
I was like
"What"?
"Did you see that?! OMFG FINAL FANTASY VII REMAKE".
"lol. Yeah right."
"FOR REAL, BITCH! Aren't you watching?!"
"No, I'm on a car ride ho...."
Then Gematsu finally updated. The whole world around me exploded. Literally, my brain just shut down. My friend left me at home and I fucking ran to my room to turn the PC on. I remember I was shaking. And then I saw it.
I couldn't fucking believe it. It was real. It was in development. They were showing it right there.
The promise had been made.
And now, a few months later they actually show in-progress GAMEPLAY. And still, like RIGHT NOW, I can't believe this is truly, actually happening.
Such is the meaning of Final Fantasy VII to me.