So i've really hit a point where I'm super frustrated, I started doing the program at the top of the post, and in 4 weeks i've actually gained 2 pounds ..... while I was watching my calories better than I have in almost all of my life. I'm a fat guy, at 5'9 I'm 265 pounds and went UP to 267 by doing the beginners program. I don't want to be fat anymore, I was fat at 245 pounds and now im 20 over and not even seeing progress in going down. I know someone is going to say it's not about the "weight" but the progress your showing and if you look better. Well I LOOK a little thinner, but im still 267 pounds after eating eggs for breakfast every day, drinking a shit tons of water and staying under 1900 calories daily which I was supposed to do according to the TDEE thing.
it's frustrating as fuck and I want to cry. I'm on lexapro for anxiety and I always think that maybe that's stopping my weight loss, but I've thought about it over and over and I don't think I could ever go off of it. I even asked a long time ago what to do for cardio in between the days that your lifting, and was told because its too hardcore to walk. So I've been walking 2 - 5 miles a day in between days at the gym, I know my technique on the squat and the bench press are solid, and I'm walking and just no progress makes me want to punch a hole in the wall, or just give up and stop going. Tonight I was at a low point and went and got Ice cream cause I'm so frustrated which just makes it feel worse.
If you can't tell my self confidence is shot, and normally it turns around by going back to the gym and feeling better, but this time its just not happening and I'm so frustrated.
On top of everything else I have a slightly paralyzed left diaphragm, and Osteo Candidas Dissecans in my left knee which basically cuts out the treadmill at the gym, which would require me sitting on my ass for 3 months to "fix"; which might not even work.
I just had to rant and try to find a solution here, because I'm skeptical of everything I read on the internet and starting over again seem's ...... hopeless