Your post last night gave me an emotional trigger since I've also made a picture of my love on her last day. The fur man.. the fur.. looked the same you know.. I'm sorry.
I wanted to respond but I wanted to say and share so much you see..
With that said.. (talking about your quote above)
That's an incredible story and thanks for sharing!
And yes, ofcourse Morris.
Man.. His brother from another has left. Sorry if it sounds stupid but that's just because words can't describe how relatable this all is. I feel you my man. =(
Beautiful photo. So much love. Bittersweet..
I
absolutely don't think you've gone overboard. You did what you felt was needed to honor him IMHO.
I did the same in my way.
Your post has so much overlap with my and my dad's "experience" it's kinda creepy.
Before I go over my "experience"; once more:
I'm really sorry for your loss and everything that comes with that.
You took him in, gave him a brother/friend and gave your love and care.
(I'm again editing this post and still at a loss for words to express my sympathy)
In regards to your last picture; these are my dad's (the black one is a stray from Greece) he adopted.
Made some screenshots when I relayed what had transpired:
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I haven't looked at pictures of her for reasons since her passing since now.
Also called my dad this morning for some photos from were she was her good old self. Pretty confronting but she was so beautiful...
I've got a
thick wall around me and aren't
that able to express myself emotionally but I'm still grieving in my own way.
Still do.
Talk to her in my head and out loud.
Still have her kibble in it's bowl in "her room."
Sleeping with her blanket she passed away on next to me. I cuddle the shit out of that blanket when needed. Call me crazy but I believe all matter observes and retains energy.
I've been brought up with cats. When I started living on my own I got an offer to buy her from a friend's ex GF seeing she wasn't vibing with her other two.
It was an immediate yes.
14 years old she got and I kept the name the owner gave her;
Djéhla. She always slept next to my head or wanted to be in my direct vicinity (Indoor cat btw; mixed race/appartment)
Fun fact: she was born a day before mine.
And what a lioness she was
She developed a cyst/tumor mm's next to her left eye. Seemed benign so we had it removed. It grew back but was most likely already in her brain (this started less than 2 years before her passing) and the only option was to remove her eye and by extension her orbital bones and all.
I
really didn't wanted to do that to her
especially at that stage in her life.
Well, skip forward a year and dementia'ish symptoms kicked in, she couldn't jump on the couch at a certain point (no strengt left) and within 2 weeks she lost 70% of her weight (She was a chonker. My bad) Wouldn't eat or drink. I foolishly tried giving her food and water through a tube. But quickly accepted what it was and just gave her some water so she didn't had a dry mouth. I sat next to her that day and every some minutes checked on her breathing.
And I'll never forgive myself for this, but maybe it's what she wanted; after finishing my dinner and returning from the kitchen she'd passed.
I remember picking her up walking to my bed and starting shaking her.
Here are said pictures and two of her "shrine" if you will. Not finished in the slightest. The plant I bought recently is because I love those
AND it's the very type she ate whenever I didn't had cat grass around so I stopped buying that specific plant.
It's perfect in an emotional and symbolic sense for both of us.
Dear
Putonahappyface
My deepest sympathies and condolences first of all..
Like
Dr.Morris79
(and many many others ofcourse) we know what these companions mean to us in a myriad of ways.
I didn't initially wanted a new companion for a multitude of reasons one of which was I deemed it extremely disrespectful and by extension a replacement. No way.
Still not ready but talking to my dad about this very same topic yesterday I'd said that if, when, etc .. I would look into a chinchilla or such..
Had a (female) rat in my later teens and they are so so sweet and kind.
Guess that always sticked with me.
lol. Only did Judo from when I was 5 to 7ish or so.
