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FRIDAY NIGHT [OT] - Official NeoGAF Weekend Kickoff

John Marston

John Marston

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Happay Friday you lovable degenerates!
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od-chan

od-chan

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The last 36 hours went by in basically an instant. Haven't slept or eaten, but I feel great. Got new medication which is basically speed. You're supposed to "start off slowly", like with 10mg or so a day, but of course as a renowned drunkard, stoner and someone who is also very enthusiastic about all kinds of other drugs, I knew this was bullshit.

I hate to admit that it kinda ended up spiraling. Instead of taking 1 pill I took.... 39. Not at once obviously, the last one was like 4 hours ago. It was pretty great though, 10/10 day. Didn't even think about smoking weed (or eating, or drinking water) but I was enjoying myself... thoroughly.

I want to put part of the blame on the system though. Like I genuinely have a high tolerance for all kinds of bullshit to begin with. I declined a prescription for Tilidine because as much as I tried to abuse it, it simply did nothing for me. Wanting me to start off with 1/8th of the actual max dosage is just plain silly. And I did try one pill at first.... for like 3 hours.

Same as with speed, the day after is so very dearly strange. Tired, but in a really good way. And you feel like, I don't even know, you came out of the Hyperbolic Time Chamber or something. It's so strange that it's friday suddenly. And what the fuck am I going to do now? Like almost disoriented, but stronger. Only problem is I have to stop myself from continuing, which I am REALLY bad at. So we'll see how this goes.

For now I'm trying to put my mind on to different things, like wishing you guys a happy friday and smoking a bowl. It's funny how I basically have to "force" myself to smoke one now, but it'll probably help.
 
od-chan

od-chan

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John Marston said:
Jesus Christ!
I know tolerance is a thing but are you ok?
Seriously 💓
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I'm genuinely great, haven't felt better in years. 39 sounds like a lot, but what I was given was the lowest possible dosage, so 10mg a pill. Goes up to 30.

Obviously I still went overboard and that's still a lot. Frankly I'm kinda surprised as well, I thought I had taken like 24 or so at most. But it was a really fun day and more importantly: Much like with weed, I now see the possibility of enjoying the benefits this offers to me on a more regular, and more acceptable, basis. This would improve my quality of life so insanely much that it's almost ridiculous. I got a little carried over board today, that's all.

One thing though: Today was the day I noticed that the Heart Rate Chart on the Apple Watch goes to 300. Haven't seen that before. Yes, 300, not 200. I'm pretty sure you won't be needing advice on health anymore when you're at 200, but when somebody actually does manage to get to 300 and still can check his Health App, I think we're the ones that are going to be needing advice.
 
od-chan

od-chan

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ÆMNE22A!C said:
Got rushed via an ambulance to the emergency care because I took loads of benzodiazepines and liquor.

Guess you could call that a close call.

Be carefull od-chan od-chan
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Benzos are like one of the most awful things you can take anyway, so I don't really mess with that and would genuinely put this more in the category of Heroin. Although at some point I did take some of them semi-regularly (not my impulse) and obviously I won't be stopping with the scotch, and other shit. But yeah, liquor and benzos is like THE thing people should avoid when they don't know how to handle it.

Glad to hear you came out fine. Don't know about your dosage, but yeah, definitely close call.
 
ÆMNE22A!C

ÆMNE22A!C

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They had to call in a psychiatric to access me after I've woken up. She spoke beforehand with my ladyfriend (who was worried I was AFK and via via was able to reach my father to get inside my home; and I'll be always be grateful for her, brother and father) and she asked some questions about my psychological treatment in which said ladyfriend told her I'm very psychologicaly intelligent and told her I needed a real good therapist or w/e seeing it's so easy for me to read and respond in a such a way that.. well..

After an hour while still being in a state you can imagine yourselves ( foggy memory ofc lol) I talked myself out of it and home we went.. A lot of shame for what I put said for those present friend, friend and brother. Lot of shame.
 
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od-chan

od-chan

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ÆMNE22A!C said:
They had to call in a psychiatric to access me after I've woken up. She spoke with my ladyfriend (who was worried I was AFK and via via was able to reach my father to get inside my home; and I'll be always be grateful for her) and she asked some questions about my psychological treatment in which said ladyfriend told her I'm very psychologicaly intelligent and told her I needed a real good therapist or w/e seeing it's so easy for me to read and respond in a such a way that.. well..

After an hour while still being in a state you can imagine yourselves ( foggy memory ofc lol) I talked myself out of it and home we went.. A lot of shame for what I put said for those present friend, friend and brother. Lot of shame.
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I hope you don't mind me asking, but I get chatty on speed: Were you just trying to have a good time, or were you trying something else that benzodiazepines are famously used for, like... finding a permanent solution? I don't remember the exact dosages because I'm glad I don't have to engage in that bullshit anymore, but if my memory serves me correct you had to REALLY try to get hospital-shitfaced like that. Like we're not talking a glass and a pill, we're talking like at least 5 pills. And at that point you obviously know you're engaging in something that is obviously harmful.

But if you were just trying to have fun, well, shit happens.. People have accidents when going skiing, you had a little too much. Honestly, no biggie, really, don't think you should have to feel any shame about that.
 
od-chan

od-chan

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how on earth have 2 hours passed since my post? I genuinely couldn't tell you what I had done in these. I legit thought it was like 30 minutes, at most. And I don't mean this in the "I haven't done anything.... except browsing social media nonstop" way, I mean this in the "is the date format on GAF maybe bugged" kind of way.

Sleep deprivation is fun. Until it isn't (which I'm luckily still like 3 1/2 days) away from
 
Putonahappyface

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od-chan od-chan I've dabbled with speed in my late teens and ended up going on a 72hr bender and hallucinating badly by the third day. As for Benzodiazepines I seldomly take them, but I'd honestly be dead or someone else would be if I didn't have them on hand during a CPTSD episode.
 
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ÆMNE22A!C

ÆMNE22A!C

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od-chan said:
I hope you don't mind me asking, but I get chatty on speed: Were you just trying to have a good time, or were you trying something else that benzodiazepines are famously used for, like... finding a permanent solution? I don't remember the exact dosages because I'm glad I don't have to engage in that bullshit anymore, but if my memory serves me correct you had to REALLY try to get hospital-shitfaced like that. Like we're not talking a glass and a pill, we're talking like at least 5 pills. And at that point you obviously know you're engaging in something that is obviously harmful.

But if you were just trying to have fun, well, shit happens.. People have accidents when going skiing, you had a little too much. Honestly, no biggie, really, don't think you should have to feel any shame about that.
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In company rn sorry.
 
od-chan

od-chan

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I was about to finally go to sleep, but decided to watch the latest Severance episode first as a treat.

I am now offended enough that I'm no longer sleepy. Fuck this.

Putonahappyface said:
od-chan od-chan As for Benzodiazepines I seldomly take them, but I'd honestly be dead or someone else would be if I didn't have them on hand during a CPTSD moment.
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Yeah, didn't want to demonize benzos. They're just a really bad idea for long term recreational use imo.

Putonahappyface said:
od-chan od-chan od-chan od-chan I've dabbled with speed in my late teens and ended up going on a 72hr bender and hallucinating badly by the third day
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Yeah, been there, but in 5 days. I don't mess with sleep deprivation beyond 100hrs since then, worked good enough for me.
 
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