Old had me thinking. Any of you grow up in the heart of the ghetto? Or just a tough growing up experience in general?
I never stayed in one spot, and I moved all over the place. Lived in some not great areas around LA, but my mom still took me all the way to the good areas for school. My conflicts were more internal family shit, it got bad (no power/water plenty of times, borderline homeless), but I'm thankful it didn't get as bad as it could have.
I think upbringing connects a lot of us to rap, so I'm curious.
Venting:
Always had to worry about money but didn't let it get to me until I turned 16 or so and I had to pay bills.
I also realized I couldn't get girls since I couldn't afford a car and I kind of fell back to appreciate the younger days due to all the sudden onset stress and the loneliness a dead end job brings.
Before that I went to the inner city ghetto schools though I was from outside about 4-5 miles away from the hood.
I suffer from autism and ADHD and I couldn't fit in at very strict Catholic schools where I was originally placed so I found my place in that environment of class disruption.
Shit was tough at first, I got bullied since I was so quiet and always just kind of watched people to figure out how others acted. Once I found my lane I made friends with the tough kids and gained popularity. All those friends joined gangs and found crime with no other options.
I left them thinking I could make it straight through saving off low level jobs. I was wrong, stay in school guys, I'm all alone, most of my family are dead, friends are gone, everyday is just bitching about money woes and there's no good to this.
I went to college and failed because I was no rich kid's friend and I had to work 115 hrs. per week with school, hw, and dish washing.
Now I'm trying to write a book lol, trying to rap with some old infrequent friends, but really I told myself that come 28 if I can't wake up without this weight I'm buying a gun and ending it.
Life in the streets is just life in poverty surrounded by dudes of the same ilk, dope rap tracks are just like finding a mirror with the perfect lighting. You may find one that calms you but you shouldn't always need to distort the image to make you feel better about your life.