Jesus OP, you are an emotional vampire
I feel very sorry for that girl you kept texting. She was obviously too polite to tell you to fuck off and stop expecting her to listen to your stupid selfish problems.
Actually, it's pretty much the opposite. She does that to me every single day, and I always give my input. I semi-frequently do it to her, but never to anywhere near that extent. Sorry. Don't do drugs.
I actually read the first three paragraphs....
Yo, 2 Chainz, you want to stop flipping burgers? Get off the molly and ditch your loser friends. Real talk, they'll only hold you back.
But there's a lot to like about them. They're the same as us. If you listen to the recording, even for a bit, you'll see that there's a lot of good in James. I can't dismiss a whole individual person as a loser. Maybe we're all losers here, but we want to do better, right? And encourage each other.
MAYBE I'M A LITTLE SCREWY, BUT I JUST WANNA BE A ARTIST, MAMA.
I think you need to join a support group to help you quit. Quitting drugs is hard but you'll respect yourself more in the end of the day. Also seek a therapist to speak to about your problems.
That said, that OP was hard to read. Where's Lionel Mandrake when you need him?
I only do them with certain people. I go months without any drugs. I rarely ever feel the need to do them alone. But I have been drinking and smoking almost daily for the past month.
Privacy will not be destroyed by governments or corporations, but by friends who post absolutely everything you've said to them.
Seriously, edit some of that info out.
It's mostly to provide context for the recording, if anyone cares to listen to it. That's what really hit me the hardest out of all of this. He was talking about someone else, but described both me and himself while saying it. I played it back to him on his porch and he wanted me to delete it. Because he realized everything he said applied to him too.
Are you still under influence?
All I can tell you is that MDMA/Molly/Ecstasy makes you talk a lot of personal things. It makes you say things and do things you wish you didn't but the euphoria in you makes you say it and do it. I've personally spilled out a lot about my personal life under the influence of MDMA and I wish I didn't. This is only ONE pill I'm talking about, which stays in your system for around 6 hours. You said you took "tons". Don't fuck your head up, and don't ruin relationships over a pill.
I have completely quit taking MDMA. You should too if you think you can't control your emotions under it.
It was great, but we parted on a sour note, and then I was thrust into some family friend party situation that put me down loads more. I still feel it a little.
You rolled and that's that. Not everything has to have deeper meaning. The way you're describing it to your friend is as if you dropped 4 tabs of lsd and met your spirit animal.
PS Get some help man. It was just ecstasy.
I know that. If you read everything, you'd see I realize that. Things have as much meaning as you want them to. The smallest and most insignificant coincidence could have the hugest effect on your life, just because you let it, because you chose to take it in a different way, beyond the surface. But that's not what really happened. It's about what James was saying.
And to everyone commenting on the phone battery. IT WAS CHARGING.