I figured I would just share my experiences of the past two or three months or so, and this seemed as good a place as any.
Before this past December, I had never been high. I had smoked maybe two or three times, didn't feel much effect. I had also never been drunk either, though I guess this statement still stands to the current day, lol I had so very little experience with any mind-altering substances before a few months ago
Since then, I've gotten together with this girl who smokes every day, and figured I would give it some more tries, and have had varying results. There's been a few times where I've felt practically no effect, and it just felt like it was a waste for me to have been smoking (from a bowl) at all. Just a waste of money, I mean. Everyone else seemed to be getting a pretty good high from it, and I felt pretty much nothing.
Other times, I've gotten this "mild" high that feels alright, but nothing special. I'm feeling "something" but I don't know if I would deem it particularly good.
Then there's been about three times that have really put me off weed. One involved hitting this giant bong for the first time ever, one involved hitting a bowl a ton of times, and the other involved sitting in a very small bathroom with my girlfriend and her roommate, running the shower at it's highest (so that it was so steamy/foggy as fuck in there before we even started smoking), and then hitting a blunt a bunch of times. All three times pretty much ended up terribly for me. I didn't feel like I was having an extreme panic attack or anything (as I've had a few of those in the past few years of my life), but I just had such an overwhelming urge that I wanted the experience to stop. I just wanted to feel "normal" again and I wanted the "high" gone. Felt kinda nauseous as well. Time felt like it was skipping ahead while people would be talking to me, and I would have no idea what they were talking about. Like I was blacking out for two seconds at a time, etc. Perhaps if I wasn't trying to focus on a conversation, it wouldn't have been much of a problem? I dunno.
I want to try more, but am not sure how to proceed. I want to avoid the three times or so where I had a bad experience, definitely lol No more hot boxing (or whatever the fuck that bathroom scenario was.. I believe her roommate referred to it as a Jamaican Sauna or Jamaican Shower lol)
Getting away from weed, the other substance that I've tried 4 times or so in the past 2 months has been Molly. I've never put anything up my nose before, so it took some getting used to. And I was certainly hesitant. Weed was the most mind-altering I planned on doing, but I figured I would live it up a bit and give this a shot. I'm told it's pure Ecstasy, so it's not mixed with a bunch of shit like the pills usually are (or can be anyways) The first two times were decent. I felt a pretty decent effect, but snorting burned like a motherfucker and I wasn't sure if I felt it was worth the overall price ($70 a gram). Then I proceeded to try a third time. HOLY FUCK. It's like it just... clicked, if that makes sense. The third time doing lines of Molly was like a revelation. I felt ridiculously great, face and body all tingly, and just overwhelming happiness. My girlfriend and I were just by ourselves (which I believe helped my comfort level over the previous times), and we watched music videos on YouTube and talked. I think we were rolling for about 6 hours or so at least, with around 2 of those hours being VERY extreme lol Ended with some amazing talks and then amazing sex
I'd appreciate any feedback on what I've discussed so far, haha. I just felt like sharing, since this has been the strangest (almost) 3 month period of my life. I'm 28 years old, and to go from NO mind-altering experiences in my life to THIS has been... whew. God damn. Like I said before, I've actually never been drunk (tipsy at the very most, and only a handful of times), either. Any tips on keeping my next weed experiences nice and comfortable? And what are your guys/gals thoughts or experiences with molly? I've been told it's not very addictive, like crack or heroin can be (definitely staying away from those two), but goddamn, I would definitely like to experience that again lol Whew
Sorry for rambling