So... I feel down for IRL reasons. I don't feel like playing video games, watching animes, or even meet my friends. I tried to go out, went to a gaming bar, got bored and felt left out, went to a gay bar, except it was completly empty so nothing to do (and, well, I never felt at ease in gay bars), and then went back home.
I have this opportunity which may very well change my future (in a very good way), but fate just keeps yanking my chain, and it keeps escaping me. I'm growing very sick of this situation. I feel utterly useless, powerless, and I can't stand waiting anymore. I'm sick of having arguments with people close to me about things we will never agree on (namely politics, religion and sexuality). I'm sick of people who act completly irrationally (and a close friend to me said something a week earlier which left me wondering if she was sane; when you hear someone say that she wants to kill an animal, a dog in this instance, because it supposedly has a "dark soul", you are left a little shocked). I'm sick of being alone. I'm sick of childish, lying and self-centered jerks. I'm sick of having no clear future.
Sorry about the rant. I needed to get that off my chest. I just want to finally move on with my life and begin anew, explore new possibilities, leave behind several things I'd rather forget about, but I need that opportunity to happen.