I'm doing better now. The pain killers and antibiotics are helping. On monday I have to go back to do a wound check and see if any further invasive work needs to be done. Thankfully, my mother has a lot of experience in healthcare, so she's able to help redress the wound when needed for the time being.
As for coming out... my mother is a rather old fashioned and religious Hatian woman, so because of that I wasn't too keen on telling her during the past 8 years I've been aware of my sexuality. Plus, she didn't react well to my brother telling her he was Atheist* earlier this year so I couldn't have even imagined coming out anytime soon. But yesterday at the hospital while we were waiting for the doctor to arrive, we had a convesation about how many hardships the family has faced these last several years. I always knew my mother cared about me deeply, but seeing her so distraught over seeing me in so much pain this week really put things into perspective.
There are a lot of things about myself that I need to change. A lot of things I need to own up to. On top of coning out, I also have to tell her that I lied earlier this year when I said that my depression wasn't to the point where I wanted to commit suicide. She's feeling really bad and sympathetic for me now so I figure that now's as good of a time as ever. I just hope that she doesn't start thinking of me differently. I still want to be her Brawly.
*(I'm admittedly agnostic leaning atheist but on top of that being difficult to explain to a 62 year old, I don't want her to feel alone since I know her faith means so much to her)
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