Well... Believe your gut feeling. If you feel so bad that you can't handle that, there's a very good, simple, but also painful solution.
First you need to gather your thoughts together and think if you wanna continue with him or not and then have a conversation about it with him.
I don't know. How could I trust him anymore? We been together over a year now. Met last Feb. Earliest correspondence I see with other guys was since last may. And the latest is May of this year. Lots of guys in between. He tells me how I'm special. How I'm not like other guys. How he genuinely loves me. How he wants to move in with me, his parents like me, he wants to marry me. Even his friends told me they never heard him talk about other guys in the past like he does about me.
I should have known. He had Grinder and Jackd installed up until December. I tried to give him the benefit of the doubt. I didn't want to be a paranoid overbearing boyfriend. I thought since he has a lot of single friends on there, he just wants to see their profiles or something. It turns out he didn't uninstall it. He just had the smarts to finally hide it off his homescreen. I uninstalled Grindr a month after I met him, after he said he wants to date exclusively. I install it this morning and see his profile updated with the latest Facebook pic.
I feel like he's trying to reserve me like I'm a goddamn restaurant. I'm the guy he can bring home to the parents. The guy he can bring around his friends. The guy who will stick around after he's too old or too tired to hook up anymore. He wants to have his cake and eat it too. He wants me to be the safety net when people are no longer interested in hooking up with him anymore. I put my trust in him and he lied to me.
I'm gonna talk to him today about it. I honestly don't know if it will work out. How do I trust him anymore? Call him 24/7? Strap a GPS to him? I trusted him and it didn't work. He took advantage and took me for granted. I'm not confident that I after I confront him if he'll change or if he'll just hide and lie better about it. He always bragged about being a good liar and storyteller.