Does anyone with OCD get intrusive thoughts?
Occasionally I think fucked up things about people and than the more I try to fight it the more intrusive it gets. Then once it goes away I carry around this guilt where I think that maybe that's who I am.
I never even knew it was a thing until I stumbled upon it by accident but I still feel like a piece of shit when the pops up.
It's like there's some separate part of your mind trying to troll you all the time.
My intrusive thoughts are usually gross. I see something disgusting lying on the ground.
A dead cockroach, shit, spit, and i imagine myself licking it. Eating it.
I know it's nothing i want to do. It's just my mind trying to gross me out. Some times i have inadequate sexual thoughts as well.
I used to feel guilty. I thought i was going insane. I was afraid of doing those things for real.
Then i had the idea to google about it. And now that i understand it i don't feel so bad.
I still have intrusive thoughts often but i try to ignore them.