Diseased Yak
Gold Member
I really don't know what to do now.
People will scoff, but I hate my job. Hate it. I've never been so stressed out in my life. I can't sleep, I overeat (gained 20 lbs. in 10 months of working there), I drink excessively nearly every night now. When I'm not at work, I dread going to work. I've seriously had moments recently where I've almost walked out.
And last week, the only person who I ever bothered talking to about any of it quit. So now I'm alone. My schedule makes a social life impossible, so I have no friends (I don't get along well with anyone at work, either). I actually regret moving to Seattle. It's been nothing but a shit show here from day one for me.
I can only relate what happened with me. I was in a similar place in my life, about 2 years ago. I waited way too long to leave the shit work situation that I was in, and it almost cost me my life. I was drinking heavily, depressed every day, and filled with dread when not hammered. A few times I sat at the edge of my bed with my .45 to my head.
I finally left, for what would have been my dream job, but the damage was done. I flamed out during my dream job, and walked away from it. Had I left the awful situation more quickly, I have to believe that wouldn't have happened.
What followed was almost a year of either unemployment or shit wages. I've since gotten back where I was, making very good money working from home, still in IT, but doing easy work now that keeps me stress-free.
Whaf I suggest is, don't wait too long. Having a new job lined up is important, yes, but I know the cost of waiting too long.