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I understand the health risks, but unless you are a long term user, the risks are minimal. Many guys at gym use them, I have two friends who currently cycle and they don't seem to behave any differebt other than an obsession with their body (which I already posess). Infact many Celebraties (like Ben Affleck mentioned earlier, or Hugh Jackman) use performance enhancing drugs to bulk up. Many gay porn stars (which we ourselves in idolize) use them. Theres a body image that gay mean idolize and hold up as the standard ( muscled physique, hairy chest, broad shoulders, bearded) and sadly I can't get there naturally. A lot of guys have cycled at least once if not twice to get that boost.
That being said, I know my problems lie deeper. But maybe then I won't be told so often that I'm not muscular, big or good enough by others. Ugh. I dunno.
The absurdity of this post triggered a bizarre out of body experience that led to a near instantaneous reappraisal of my self, both physically and mentally.
In short, I realised that this is what people with this insecurity actually believe.
I feel a lot better. Thank you.
EDIT: This could be read cynically or condescendingly. It wasn't written that way.