I guess it wasn't a mistake to come out and post here after all; thank you for the kind words.
It's not easy for me to approach gay groups because of the bigotry that still sometimes exists within them, at least IRL from my own personal experience. Thankfully though, things have gotten better; my college now has monthly ace meet ups, as well as more resources for pansexual, polysexual, and genderqueer people. Hell, the LGBT center is being considered to be renamed the LGBT&GSM resource center now; all the old people are gone, so it's nice to see some accepting fresh blood so that other queer college kids can go in and not be afraid of being themselves or trying to be something they are not.
As for me, I keep my sex and sexuality to myself mostly, but I don't let anything keep me from doing something I want to do, or going somewhere I want to go, or wearing something I want to wear, or acting and sounding like myself. I wanna wear 80s glam and pop colors on a special night, I do it. if I want to sing Bonnie Tyler songs at karaoke, I do it. If I want to sketch out new fashion designs and ensembles, I'll do that too. I stopped trying to sound like what a man is "supposed" to sound like (which with me having a semi-uncommon in my parts vocabulary as well as a higher pitched range was really hurting my throat) and started just speaking naturally, and I've gained speaking confidence because of it. I know who I am, fuck anyone that doesn't like it.
Dates and flirts are still a little iffy. If I click with someone, I am sure to ask them thier sexual orientation and tell them mine soon, because it's best to be upfront in these things and you don't want to waste each other's time. Some people are fine being with someone that can never connect with them on a sexual level, others need that as the act of sex is not enough for them, and other still don't understand that the fact that there is no sexual connection there does not in any way mean the romantic love is any less. It's something that's honestly hard for me, a person with no sexual attraction to understand, but I can respect it; makes looking for compatible people a little tougher though. It's no big deal for me though; I am so busy, the last thing I need right now is a relationship, and thanks to the good people in my life, I need never feel lonely in any way.
I guess all I'm really trying to say is that living as yourself, who you really are, is important, as important as everything else about you. I am so lucky I am comfortable to do that now, and I think that if people like us, people who are better of in understanding themselves, can help those that need to find thier voice and footing, there would be a positive difference made.
