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NeoGAF Anonymous Confessions 2014 - Confessember Be Upon Us - Under New Management

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IDKAboutThat

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I have one! I'm a massively arrogant and attention-seeking person, and I've only realized that relatively recently. I want people to talk about me when I'm not in the room, and that's more or less my purpose in life. I also think I'm actually worth talking about. I'm not a bad person, I don't do bad things to people for attention, and I'd never want the attention if it was for something too negative, but there it is. I know shitloads of people have this same thing going on, and I want to stress that the only real way that this affects my interactions with other people is that I constantly talk about myself. I can talk about other things, and I do all the time, but I always think my opinion is the most valuable one in the room. Goddamn it, I actually think I'm interesting! Like, I'm an actor, and I've never once had stage fright or been nervous about an audition because I'm so infuriatingly confident in myself.
I think it's because I'm smart and funny and handicapped. I'm nothing special to look at, just an average dude, but I'm really good at interacting with other people, especially the meeting them part of it. Despite all of this, I'm not very ambitious, and I'd love to just live a normal life with a bunch of friends and a family and video games. I don't dream of becoming a celebrity or anything, although now that I mention it it would be super hype to be the host of a talk show about video games.

Anyone notice how this confession turned into me bragging halfway through?
Yeah. It's in my brain, man.
TL;DR I fucking love it when people pay attention to me!
 
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NeOak

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SickWheelchairCombos said:
I have one! I'm a massively arrogant and attention-seeking person, and I've only realized that relatively recently. I want people to talk about me when I'm not in the room, and that's more or less my purpose in life. I also think I'm actually worth talking about. I'm not a bad person, I don't do bad things to people for attention, and I'd never want the attention if it was for something too negative, but there it is. I know shitloads of people have this same thing going on, and I want to stress that the only real way that this affects my interactions with other people is that I constantly talk about myself. I can talk about other things, and I do all the time, but I always think my opinion is the most valuable one in the room. Goddamn it, I actually think I'm interesting! Like, I'm an actor, and I've never once had stage fright or been nervous about an audition because I'm so infuriatingly confident in myself.
I think it's because I'm smart and funny and handicapped. I'm nothing special to look at, just an average dude, but I'm really good at interacting with other people, especially the meeting them part of it. Despite all of this, I'm not very ambitious, and I'd love to just live a normal life with a bunch of friends and a family and video games. I don't dream of becoming a celebrity or anything, although now that I mention it it would be super hype to be the host of a talk show about video games.

Anyone notice how this confession turned into me bragging halfway through?
Yeah. It's in my brain, man.
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IDKAboutThat

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NotTheGuyYouKill said:
Who are you
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Psychotext said:
Sounds like just some average dude.
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Chainsawkitten said:
Don't worry, dude. Lots of people feel that way. You're entirely ordinary.
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noooooooo
 
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Little Nemo

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I love my gf, she is a sweet, caring, beautiful woman who tries her best to make me happy....and she annoys the living hell out of me at times.....

We have been together going on 4 years now and a long story short, even though I love her I just can't help but feel we are total opposites emotionally, and I know she feels that way too. Her affectionate nature is to the point of unstable clinging, if I'm in the bathroom dropping a dueve she will knock on the door and ask me how much longer am I going to be; if I leave the house to go help a friend move or even just to go to a comic store for some "me" time she will call me 5 or 6 times until I answer and try to start some dry uninteresting conversation.

She has had a rough past and life, her mother died when she was a teen and her oldest sister adopted her simply to collect the inheritence money and otherwise treated her like crap most of her life. She didn't really start getting to know her father until she early 20's and by the time they started getting close he also passed away, as a result her siblings on his side for the most part treat her like the problem since she was the secret child no one knew about.

She was married to a guy she only knew for a short while and their marriage ended after 2 months resulting in a child that he never wanted to claim but she forced him to accept the child and be in their lives....he now has primary custody of that child due to an emotional outburst she had years ago that resulted in him calling the cops on her and her being tossed in jail and a mental facility for a while.

Bottom line she's just been desperate to have someone love her and to love someone ever since her mom died, the problem is I didn't realize this until AFTER we were together and she was pregnant. I blame myself for that because I had just come out of a few crappy dating situations and it was nice to have someone appreciate me for a change, though I didn't realize the appreciation was actually turning into borderline obsession.

There isn't a day that goes by that I don't wish I could pack up and leave her and not look back, but I wouldn't dare abandon my child and not to mention I would feel guilty if my gf decided to do something to herself as a result since she has attempted suicide already, she's been to a number of therapist but none of them seem to help the situation and one even went to the point of telling her that she seems to come to therapy simply to just complain and not actually work past her problems which I would have to agree with.

I genuinely do love this woman but I know I will never be happy with her, I've only stuck around this long because I am afraid of what may happen if she is alone with our daughter and snaps, I know this is long winded and very underwhelming....I just feel like I'm in more of a hostage situation then a relationship, I've been hoping she would leave on her own when I told her how I felt but she hasn't, I've gone so far as to tell her I will never marry her and that I have not been happy in years but she still says she loves me too much to leave me; really I know it's just the fact that she's been alone so much that she'd rather stay with someone who doesn't want to be with her then be alone.....

I don't know what to do anymore and feel like I'm slowly loosing my mind......
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PsychGAF here. I'm a psych undergrad and not a licensed therapist but my guess here is your girlfriend seems very likely to be suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder. I had a past girlfriend who was also likely suffering from the disorder so I know the signs and the disorder very intimately. I've also done a lot of reading and research on it.

As someone who's been in a relationship with a similar type of individual you have my sympathy as to what you're going through. You said you do dearly love your girlfriend and your daughter so assuming that you want to help the best thing you can do is find an appropriate therapist for your girlfriend that will be able to properly diagnose and help her and you deal with the disorder. Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is a very challenging disorder to treat and a lot of therapists can't or won't treat it. It's often misdiagnosed by well-meaning and well-intentioned therapists who simply don't have enough knowledge and training regarding the disorder. Therapists are not all equally qualified to treat all mental health issues despite what they may want you to believe. You really need to look for a specialist here.

What I would suggest is going to the Psychology Today website and they have a "Find a Therapist" portion of the site for Canada and the US. With that you can find certified therapists that work specifically with patients with BPD. You can filter the search results in your area by issue and treatment orientations. Filter by Borderline Personality Disorder as the issue and DBT as the treatment orientation. DBT is treatment orientation designed specifically for dealing with borderline individuals and helping them deal with their emotion dysregulation and self-harm issues. You're going to want to find someone who is well versed in this type of treatment. They should be able to properly determine whether or not she's actually suffering from BPD and help you if she is. She definitely sounds to me like she's suffering from the usual traits and I'd put money on her having BPD.

If you want to stay with her then you're going to need to educate yourself about the disorder as well (assuming she has it). She needs to help herself but you can do a lot to help her too. People with this disorder are believed to have a genetic predisposition toward experiencing emotions much more potently than the average individual. They develop poor coping mechanisms early in life and significant early losses of individuals close to them seem to be precursors to developing the disorder. Once you better understand why and how she thinks and feels and acts the way she does, you'll better be able to relate to and help her with her issues. It won't be easy but the disorder can be treated and people can recover.

So first things first, find a therapist skilled and experienced in treating BPD with DBT therapy and have her assessed for the disorder. If she ends up diagnosed, feel free to PM me and I can point you to some books that can better help you learn how to understand and relate to her. As the combination of genetic predisposition and early life losses tend to predispose someone to this condition, your bailing on the relationship and your daughter could result in her developing the same disorder as her mother. So even if you don't do it for your gf, do it for your daughter. Good luck in getting help!
 
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Wazzy said:
Turning rape experiences into a competition is disgusting and is only a mean to shame victims. The confessors stance is awful and is really toxic. It's full on shaming rape victims just because they didn't experience what they did.
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absolutely no one talked about turning rape experiences into a competition. there wasn't even a slight inference to that notion at all by anyone.
 
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perfectchaos007

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About 8 years or so I played Gaia online and would entertain myself by walking in houses hoping to catch a couple in the middle of avatar sex. Then I would troll them
 
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All these years later I still chuckle at what a fucking moron that guy is.
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Little Nemo

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-COOLIO- said:
absolutely no one talked about turning rape experiences into a competition. there wasn't even a slight inference to that notion at all by anyone.
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I'm sure having another victim invalidating other victims' experiences would be naturally upsetting for a lot of people, but we should remember he/she (the confessor) is a victim too. I'm sure they've been through a lot of pain and hurt and some of their anger is obviously misplaced here. I think effort is probably better placed on educating them rather than making them feel scorned.

I'm not trying to single anyone out or anything like that, but compassion should go around to everyone who's been affected like this. It's really horrible for anyone to have to go through something like rape regardless of the exact circumstances surrounding it.
 
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Denzar

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Been going through this thread again, it has grown quite substantially since my last visit, and this confession stood out to me.

OK, so... I have always hated people. Really, overall we're just not very nice, open, accepting, caring, loving, peaceful or kind. Now, just to make it clear, I do not think that I should behave poorly towards people. Chances are that I might be a person myself, and if I want to be treated nice, I've got to treat others nicely. However, so far in life, I have known two nice people, and one half-decent one who tolerates me more than I deserve, so they're cool.

However, things are starting to get a little bit irritating. You may have seen The Fly II, a poor yet gory horror sequel. In it, a scientist attempts to teleport a dog. In one of the absolute most disgusting things I have ever seen, the dog arrives at its destination completely inside-out. Well, people are even uglier than that. And I'm now starting to notice it.

Honestly, you must have some idea about what I am on about. In order to hide their hideousness, people do one good thing for every five or ten bad things that they do, and, when trying to convince themselves that they are good people, they focus on that one good thing, which apparently more than makes up for their destruction of the earth's resources, the vanity of their exercising, or their humiliating of others. Often, this willful negligence to acknowledge the starving, the cold, and the wretched is caused because of their denial. Well, OUR denial.

And that's why I don't like people, really. Even those who try to be nice equate politeness to kindness, and thus contribute naught to others. It's really rather tragic, and something that could go a long way towards being stopped if people were more accepting of the feeling of guilt. Regret, sorrow, anguish... Why do we deny them on a day-to-day basis? To make us feel better about ourselves? If so, then hedonism is in our blood.

But anyway, I digress. People have started to grow in number, and this is causing even more harm to everything and everyone. I'm sure that we're all heading for a disaster, and I'm also sure that a lower population would help avert this. I know that most people would briefly humour the idea, before realising that they or someone that they care for would likely be among the depleted population, and thus put the thought to rest.

... I'm not so sure. I could not care less as to who dies. What matters is that the nature that has been strangled under the collective banner of humanity will finally have an opportunity to breathe for the first time in a few centuries, and that's something far greater than familial ties could ever be. We contribute so little, and take so much, all of the time. I think that the very Earth that houses us and birthed us would appreciate it if we grew up, upped sticks, and left for the stars. Seeing as that's not going to happen any time soon though, it'd be better if we just died out, for the sake of altruism towards nature.

Thank you for your time.
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I feel almost exactly the same way. Sometimes it's unbearable. It's sickening. If you ever read this, confessor, could you tell me what your age is?

If you want to talk, you can PM me.

EDIT: Then I read this response and this dude is absolutely right.

Night Hunter said:
Because I'm expecting a pile on from all of GAFs well adjusted citizens, I'll just say this in the hope that you might get something out of it, anon:

Seriously, hatred is so teenager. Silent contempt is for grown ups. And finding amusement in the absolute absurdity of our existence is like misanthropy master class. Because let's face it, all this shit is fucking hilarious. So just kick back and relax, enjoy the show, with a little bit of mental discipline you will get a lot of laughs out of this life.
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I'm getting there, and i hope you will too, anon.
 
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NotTheGuyYouKill

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Going to keep this as short as I can. First, I'll say that I'm the F1 and B1 confessor from last year.

I got close to a friend I had only known for a couple of years at the time. He had to move back to Ireland in late 2011 and was visiting last year. I told him about F1 and B1 earlier and he helped me get through that tough time. We met up whilst he was visiting to catch up. During that visit, he was able to rape me. It's uncomfortable for me to go into detail still. But I was able get away from him and contacted the police. Unfortunately he was going back to Ireland a couple of days later, so he wasn't caught. It really messed me up and put me in a worse place. Having a friend that close to me do something like that just shattered my trust in a lot of people.

Another thing I wanted to add in as well to save sending in two separate emails.

Earlier this year I had heard that my uncle had cancer. I had no idea how to feel about it. This may seem heartless at first, but I hated my uncle. Back when I was younger the two of us were really close. He was always around and constantly buy me toys and gifts. This went on for a while. But I remember one night when I was 6 I woke up and saw my uncle at my bed with his arm under my duvet and I could feel him touching me. I cried out and my uncle telling me to be quiet. I remember my dad opening my door and seeing him drag my uncle out of the room. I was scared, even though I didn't properly understand what exactly was going on. It's stuck with me for a long time but when I heard of my uncle's cancer it came back in full force. However, despite that I didn't want to show any form of celebration or joy at his passing. Not only because, despite everything, he was still my dad's brother and I didn't want to say or do anything that would upset my dad. But also because I didn't want to get to the level where I celebrate death.

However, despite those events, life has improved. I'm at university now and my social life has improved, which has helped me move on from my past events.
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I'm happy that your life has improved and that you were able to overcome your trauma. Keep at it.

I'm raging mad that the Irishman got away though. Fucker.
 
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Figboy79

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NotTheGuyYouKill said:
Too late.
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FZZpure said:
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I have a fetish for cumming inside girls. I think the appeal is purely based on our sexual instincts but idk. Good luck to whoever this is.
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I don't think there's anything wrong for her fascination with cum. Personally, I think cumming inside of a woman, without a condom, is one of the most pleasurable feelings in the world. It feels fucking amazing. Considering that it seems like a lot of women don't care much for cum, it's nice to hear from one of the many, I'm sure, that seem to love it.

Also, after page after page of douche canoes, incest, and animal molesting, a confession about loving cum is fucking beautiful.
 
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