It's fine. You don't want to. I am here and I am sure some others wouldn't mind if you wanna share.
I play a sport and because of this, I travel quite a bit and spend a lot of time abroad. Back in June, I had an event in Prague. There was this one Polish woman, just jaw-droppingly beautiful. I mean, I just couldn't believe how hot she was. Anyway, she also has something to do with our sport, but more in the organisational scheme of things. I very briefly met her and talked to her over there but nothing happened.
Skip forward to 2 weeks ago, where I did a tour through Poland, mostly visiting friends and other obligations and asked her if she wanted me to drop by on my last day/day and a half over there before I would have to fly back home. She said yes and couldn't wait to see me.
So skip forward a couple of days when I arrive at her place. We go out at night to a restaurant and then have some drinks with her and some friends of hers. At about 2.30am, both drunk as fuck, we head over to her apartment and have an amazing night full of passion and chemistry. We do this all over again in the morning and at noon, but without the alcohol.
The last full day we went for a walk throughout the city and all the romantic stuff before I would catch my flight. I got to know her much better and started to feel something for her.
We talked about this but she told me she really doesn't wanna start anything or have any sort of relationship. She also, emphatically, said that she also feels something for me and that night we spent together definitely wasn't just fun. But she suddenly wants me to keep my distance.
When I asked her if she would want me to come over for a longer period of time, to see if there's any possibility if this could work and to get to know each other better, she rejected it.
So now I just been thinking about her all week long, which is affecting my practice as well. Why can't I just accept the fact that I managed to bed an absolute goddess and just go on about it. She lives 600miles away and I'm a dude. I should be feeling on top of the world right now, but it's the opposite.
Have some Belgian chocolate with some Belgian ale. Otherwise ask Dr. rando or Dr. RBH for versed.
Getting shitfaced tomorrow and gonna do nonstop travelling starting Tuesday til mid december.
