You need to stop watching old Bryzgalov interviews.W-..wha? It was just a parody of the whole "the thing we were looking for was inside of us all along" trope.
That post was all teal-ralk. When you have that realization of how utterly insignificant you, as a human are, in the grand scheme of things you constantly get caught up in existential contemplation and end up in a vicious loop of acknowledging these realizations until it leaves you gasping for acknowledgement and validation until you feel alive again.
So you break out of it as quick as you can before it swallows you whole. You focus on something to distract you.
Tonight, I will have chicken parmigiana and salad for dinner.
Acid, come on, bay. Old 3DS is for grown ass men like myself!