I always knew that I was quite shitty reading people, then latter I discovered that I had a brain condition that unabled me to do it so. I can precieve well enough, but my brain cannot put into relation these varied imputs. Say, I can tell if a person is wearing black pants and a red t-shirt, but I would be hard pressed to define this as casual or formal attire. Or I can know that a girl is smiling at me, but I cannot quess whetever she is happy, amused or ironic about it. When people talk about "non-verbal language" it strikes me as if shuddenly everyone is able to read auras and keep talking about them as if they would be the most common thing ever.
As you can imagine, flirting for me is a riot. Extreme emotional Russian roulette, full of epic fails and funny histories. My only chance was to beat myself with failure until I developed a thick skin, which I did. I still fail miserably, but it hurts much less. I still thinking that courtship rituals are horseshit, and I don't understand why the hell people should dance around about what it could be a much more clean, efficient, less messy process: do you want to date / have sex / whatever? Good. State it then. You don't want to date? Too bad, state it clearly and I will move on. No need for shitty drama and retarded games of "guess what is in my mind". Fuck that shit. We humans make something simple into something needlessly complex, unnecessary and painful.
