Forgot to add my actual post. I finished DOOM a little bit ago finally. That was a hell of a game! Loved it.
Installed Wolfenstein: The New Order to continue this single player romp weekend.
I played a little over three hours today. It's really solid. Not as characterful nor well written as Double Fine games tend to be, but much better designed mechanically. The controls are really nice, the environment is fun to explore, the combat is decent, and the puzzles are great. I dunno. It's been a good, strong distraction for me today.
I want to get that game eventually really bad. I love love love the aesthetic they're going for and the general goofiness of the set up.
Didn't expect it to be a metroidvania when I first saw the trailers, but that's fine too.
It's nice to be able to afford things.
And by things I mean beer, to numb the pain of living.
Preach!
Money means very little to me as long as my basic needs are met. But I admit I'm in a scenario where I can't enjoy having it anyway.
Word!
financial stability is certainly a part of it (without the showy status part—I don't care about that), but I would be sorely amiss to claim that finance is the only privilege I've been given. It's easier to hang out with people who you're not embarrassed to be yourself around. Like it's embarrassing for me to talk about days when things are going really well for me in this thread when there are other people who constantly go on about their depression or job problems or illness or a lack of confidence or relationship drama or death of family. Because it's not fair. And the very last thing I want to do is make light of other people's problems, so it's just easier to avoid confrontation for the most part.
so most of the time we can talk about general issues and interests, and most of the rest of the time I censor myself. But ignoring that disparity is harder to do in real life when you're in it and living it.
(to be clear, I'm not trying to say I think I'm always humble, nor that I think I ought to be. It's a tricky balance)
I think perspective is valuable in growing as a person. I get the embarrassment feeling you're describing, but honestly it's on the other people as well to understand, separate, and accept you for who you, Lili the person/individual, are, not what your family or background is.
Basically, you shouldn't censor yourself for others. However I do feel you should have an open mind and be happy to engage and learn from others from other backgrounds. Rather than boundaries out of an individual's control.
But I'm all about honesty and being up front with everybody, regardless of (most) situations. I just realized that bit me in the ass at work as I got into it a bit with a cofounder because they were getting butthurt over a completely minute issue that he was bitching at all of us over. Oh well.
I say that as someone who grew up around the rich and privileged while being the 1% who is poor in the area.
I've dealt with the embarrassment feeling from the opposite side the majority of my life.
This got all sorts of fucked up with my post-post editing. DAMN!
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Take what you have and use it to make other people's lives better. Even just being in their lives can be enough.
Yes, good! This is the conclusion I was going for. Thanks JB.
