I'm so sorry. The game is just being evil to you at this point.
I'm trying to remain positive, I am. But every time I summon, it's another disappointment. I want to look past this, continue playing the game, and hope for the future, but I'm really finding it difficult to. I nearly missed out on my 50 daily Lapis today, since I didn't even bother to run any dungeons. I did, of course, gift all of those on my Friend List, I never forget to do that.
As I said earlier, I'm not unfamiliar with bad gatcha pulls. However, with FFBE, this is the longest I've ever gone without getting anything substantial in-return, and with a lot of spent Lapis because of it. I'm not exactly being showered with Lapis, so it's kind of a luxury for me right now, and I'd rather not reach into my wallet, since the prices are insane in Canada. When I summon 35+ times, and the best I have to show for it are three Ignus (I wish I was joking, but I'm not), and I begin to have doubts as to whether or not to keep this game on my phone. I know I'm just unlucky, as the rates are supposedly not as bad as they seem to be for me, but it doesn't make it any less painful for me.
I feel so defeated. I always log back in thinking another pull will fix things and everything will return to normal (and it doesn't). Then I just get more disappointment. I'm really not sure what I'll do with this game, and if I'll even continue playing it. I've already decided that, despite Tilith and FFXIII's banners coming up (presumably), that I'll continue doing my daily pulls in the hopes of a Refia. If I don't get her, or any other useful new unit between now and the time the banner ends, I'll probably uninstall the game and move on (which is unfortunate, since I had a lot of fun with it and the community here is awesome). As it is, playing the game just upsets me. If I could look past the horrible pulls it wouldn't be so bad, but I can't (especially when the new content will start demanding better healers, DPS, etc.).
Anyway, sorry for the wall-of-text and the negativity. I'm not usually like this, which just goes to show how demoralizing this banner has been for me. :/