I see so many Moon Babies asking about the new music...So I thought I'd respond:
It was last spring when I started feeling like I had spent too much time around too many people who were trying to make me shave off everything that didn't fit in their generic pop star box. I was so young and naive when I got into the business at 15 years old and looked up to a lot of people throughout my career who, I realize now, have no clue what is going on.
So yeah...There was a time last year where something turned around in me and I went like..."wait, if no one actually has the answers or guarantees then why am I letting some old suit make the final decision...why am I basing my feelings about my career on someone elses opinion of me? And most importantly, why the hell am I not doing the sickest, edgiest **** I can think of? Something that I'd wanna buy." I needed to take my power back.
I had gotten so jaded and unadventurous, waiting for releases that never happened, playing someone elses game. I couldn't even listen to Bjork or other amazing artists cause they reminded me of everything that I couldn't do, stuck on a major label.
I had ****ing lost myself completely.
This is not a complainy kind of letter cause I understand I've been lucky to live a dream of a lot of people + in the process of this, learned to write and vocal produce, do videos, costumes, everything that needed to be done.
I also absolutely can't underestimate the amazing human beings that I have crossed paths with during this time...
but as I said,
I had ****ing lost myself completely. Technically I was better than ever but I was missing the reason why.
So what I did was lock myself into my studio, trying to tap back into that innocence of ideas, adventure, quirky **** and magic. I've been on THAT vibe for almost 9 months now and there's probably like 5 songs i got that I think could be the next single with Ultra (yeah, I finally changed labels) but I'm digging through some deep stuff right now so I wanna give myself time to incubate, to find myself again.
I've been coming up with a bunch stuff that touches me deeply...not escaping from the dark side anymore..letting it all in...not judging anything I do.
To me, I think it's some of my best material yet but music is a vibration and you might hate it..or love it...who knows. All I can do is do my best.
....Real Talk....
And now the most important part of this rant:
I wanna thank you, my beautiful Moon Children, for all the love and support that you guys have given me over the years. It's been a real blessing and have kept me going more than you will ever know.
Can't wait to share the new magick. It's birthing as we speak.
Integrity/Love/Unity
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