Just wanted to share this:
There's this guy who I first met like 10 years ago, I think a bit more. I was probably about 15 then. By then I didn't have any gay friends / experiences. I've never been too outgoing and I've always hated sports. My older brother loves all kind of sports, so he had plenty of friends in our neighborhood with whom he used to play or just hang out. I don't remember why but there was one day I actually went outside with him.
That day I met this guy. I don't know what it was but I felt that he liked me, not just as a friend. I think he was very nice to me. Anyway, I didn't really talk to him again other than probably saying hi if/when I bumped into him. I dismissed it as me being silly, I mean it couldn't be truth, he was very masculine and he was friends with my older brother, they played sports, etc.
Flashback to a couple of years ago. I bumped into him again. This time he was introduced to me as a (male) coworker's boyfriend. I was floored. My "gaydar" was actually right?. After a while we added each other on FB, etc. Sometimes I felt he was a bit intense, like writing me every other day or so. Eventually I told him I was gay (it wasn't too hard to figure out, I had my relationship status/partner on display). He was like "if I knew you were gay I would have hit on you back then". Eventually it kind of faded away, I was in a relationship (I think he had broken up with his boyfriend by then) and it felt a bit like cheating.
I talked to him again a couple of months ago, I was just curious and thought it might have been worth giving it a shot since I was single again. We chatted for 2 days or so but I stopped texting him because I felt there was someone else in the picture. And there was. Not too long after that I found out he was dating a coworker's cousin (this is a new place, not my old job). I thought it was kind of weird but it's pretty usual here, the gay community seems very small for a big town.
Yesterday I found out he broke up with his boyfriend, through my coworker. I was suspicious and asked something (sort of unrelated) to her which led to her revealing him they had broken up. Deep inside I was like: YES!!!! NOW'S MY TURN!!!!
Either way I just thought I'd wait it out before even contacting him because it seems they just broke up a few days ago.
Out of the blue, he texts me earlier today. He says hi (on instamessage, which was kind of weird since we talked on whatsapp the last time, but I think he may have lost his phone). He asked how I was and we talked a bit. I wrote him later tonight asking about his day. We talk a bit more. He asks about boyfriends to which I reply "No boyfriend". He said: "I'd say I'm sorry but if you broke up it was for a reason", which I thought was sort of a way of saying "I'm glad you're single" but let's not read too much into that.
So yes, I'm very excited about the idea of possibly dating him because it feels like something out of this world, like those things you see in movies, all this weird backstory. I have to say I sort of felt butterflies (I guess nervousness/excitement) when I was talking to him this morning, it's kind of silly but I like it.