So I have been seeing this guy for roughly a month and a half and have just learned something interesting.
Last weekend my friend was away with other gays on Fire Island and at some point he saw one of his housemate for the weekend had a picture of my guy favorited on his grindr. He asked after him and turns out they had hooked up the week prior.
As a background, after an initial honeymoon/infatuation period of a couple of weeks where it became clear that he was really into me (at least as far as I could tell), a period of self doubt hit me because I feel very comfortable being single and am having a great time and I don't know if I am ready or even want a relationship.
Now, I don't know how I feel about that information.
On the one hand, we never mentioned exclusivity and never even talked about what we were doing and where this was going. I have also been very up-and-down about the whole thing and would alternate between "I think I have to stop this because I don't want to lead him on" and "I do like him, it's great hanging out". I was also totally prepared to hook up with someone if the opportunity presented itself on a night out, but I did not actively looked for it (haven't been on grindr since I first hooked up with him and eventually deleted it).
On the other hand, I am actually starting to warm up to him and the idea that we'll see each other for a long time. I was also a little bothered and slightly annoyed about learning it, maybe jealous? In practice I have been exclusive and have not really entertained the idea of hooking up with anyone since I started seeing him.
I was abroad for a week (I guess the week he hooked up) and we sent each other a few cutsie emails, but nothing lovey-dovey. He sent me a picture of a frog saying it reminded him of me (I'm French) which I thought was quite cute and I sent him a pic of myself after a jog in front of the Eiffel Tower to prove that I had indeed used the sneakers that I brought with me.
We're seeing each other later this week, he's cooking me dinner. I'm quite sure it's time we check in with each other and have a talk about our expectations and what we think we want out of this. I'm not sure however whether I should bring up the hook up (in a humorous way) or just not say anything about it.
Anyway, was wondering what you guys thought about this.