Came to the realization only really this year.
At 13 or 14 I inevitably fell in love with the daughter of my parents' acquaintances, who I had known since birth. I only ever had true feelings for her, all the while though (how, I guess, I had done since the dawn of my time) acknowledging the fact that the male form is objectively a hundred times superior to the other one.
I'd say even at 16 or 17 I found it difficult to imagine dem boys fawning over some boobies
for real instead of, dunno, faking it? Without ever consciously thinking about any of this (since it had always been a part of me, ergo I took it for granted), I think I actually believed this 'boys-are-srsly-into-gals'-thing to be nothing but a total
myth, even when they were seemingly protesting the opposite. I mean 'how on earth could they NOT see that this hot guy over there is soo much cuter than any girl could ever be', right?
I know, sounds like one would imagine a child to think, but really, being interested in looking at boys had always been such an innate part of me that I never really cognitively questioned it or made anything of it. Also, holding my girl in my arms like a straight protectOR person just felt nice and kinda right. Also, the thought of actually
engaging with another guy not to mention the thought of loving a guy seemed ludicrous to me. I was convinced of being physically only able to appreciate guys while romantically being exclusively compatible with girls only.
Anyway, me and my gf broke up in 2012.
Most of 2013 doesn't really exist in my biography and starting with the winter term of last year, my stance was: whether it's a guy or a girl that might come into my life, I don't really mind which one it is.
Few months back from now then, I decided to actively try to seek out potential partners for the first time. That meant of course that I first had to settle on what I was actually looking for. By this time it was already too clear I had a very strong preference on this matter.
From that insignificant point on I grew more and more fond of the idea and I'm becoming gayer and gayer every day (ahem, only in the sense of coming to terms with it or the label or the identity or y'know). I'm now quite confident in saying that, yes, I'm hella into dudes and I always have been. (Although that's nothing new since I've always known that, so for 'newness' and 'realisation' factor's sake
Yes, I'm gay. Yay.