I am going to a therapeutical dorm in less than 4 weeks. This will help me to fix my life. I have some serious problems with really everything. With who I am, with the people I met, with the people I am related to. And some other fucked up shit, with which I spare all of you about knowing. I have 3 goals in there.
1st goal is to get enough strength to do something I want more than anything else in life.
2nd goal is to get an additional point of view of something I don't wanna explain in here.
3rd goal is to cut off every remaining bond with every person I have met or I am related to.
It's the 3rd goal why I want to leave now. I noticed some people like me here. And that's what I want to prevent. If the people in here would know me completely, probably no one would even think about liking me. I have no real friends. I have no friends at all. There are certain reasons for that. Some of these reasons are my fault, others not. But in the end I don't want any friends. Even though I go soon to this therapeutical dorm. My life will go down, there's no happy end for me. And I don't wanna draw anyone down with me. I don't want anyone in here to like me. I stayed in this thread and OT1 because that's the place where I always went, even with my previous account. The only place where I could be -just a little bit- myself. But I need to let it go now.