You know, the more I think about my NF last night, the more grumpy I'm getting. Fucking 7 ass shards, again. Why would that ever be an appropriate 'reward' for a NF, especially one thats as much hassle to complete as Omnigul. Shards shouldn't even be in the loot table for that. I mean I actually enjoy Omnigul (OmniLOL as I call her, ho ho ho) as a strike, its pretty fun and enjoyable chaotic at times, but theres no denying it can be time consuming as a NF even with a burn.
I'm not saying I ought to get an exotic every time I run a NF, but its a complete insult to get shards or energy. What can I do with those? Aside from start a new character and use them to level that? But no way am I doing that, I have zero desire to trawl through the early game again, so I have all these useless mats that I haven't needed on a character since like Level 29 that keep on dropping for pretty much everything I'm doing. Also the same damn shotguns and hand cannons every fucking time; Two for the morgue - just fuck off. The Devil you do/don't - just fuck off.
And I'm never going to be quite at ease with RNG I guess, by its very nature its naturally unfair which is fine, life isn't fair and I have the same chance of loot at everyone else, but it doesn't half start to skew your perceptions of your own luck when you get crap continually and others are literally showered in exotics. It starts to make you feel like you're doing something wrong when you're missing huge amounts of weapons, or players who have stuck over 1000 hours in and still don't have say Gjallerhorn or Hawkmoon and then you have others with vaults full of exotic dupes getting more every week who have become utterly blase about it. RNG has a tendency to make you focus on loot as the be all and end all which when you're on a 'loot slump' can make the whole thing feel a bit depressing. When I can do my first entire run of CE on HM from the abyss right through to Crota (not killing Crota, natch - not managed that yet, the big glitchy nobhead) and I get nothing but shards and energy or the same damn gauntlets for the 10th time and I'm surrounded by my fireteam getting constant new weapon drops it starts to grate a little. I've never seen the helm drop for anyone yet either.
I love Destiny, despite the obvious flaws I really do, and I'll continue to play the current content and look forward to HoW because ultimately its a lot of fun and one day my luck may start to change but when I have a shitty NF like last night (like every damn NF I do these days) it just destroys any enthusiasm for a day or two. Grinds my fucking gears.
Sorry.