Im gonna re-post this from the mental health OT cuz I need opinions:
I quit smoking pot about a year ago and I'm trying to go back (because of tremendous boredom when I'm not working).
Of course my fiance woudl rather me not smoke, but since it's been a huge part of my life for the past 10+ years she says she doesn't care if I do it when the time's right (away from our house, in a safe place, and if I don't drive while stoned).
The problem is that the past couple times I have smoked I haven't been able to enjoy the high. All I can think about is my daughter and fiance and heavy feelings of guilt, and reeling thoughts about if my fiance will be mad at me when I get home, or not talk to me for the rest of the night.
I used to smoke to enjoy music more, laugh at stuff, and focus my attention on things (whether it be a video game, movie, or making mundane tasks fun to do), and I still get those effects to a certain degree but once my fiance/daughter pops in my head it's all over.
Basically, it's just taking a few hits of pot every now and then, but I feel like i'm committing murder every time I try to enjoy myself at my family/friends' houses.
My questions are how do you guys feel about this, and am I just growing up and being a good father, or is my fiance too overbearing about this (i was smoking weed before we even met each other, after all, and she used to do it with me.