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LGBTQIA Thread |OT5| Can't even drink straight
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umop_3pisdn
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I feel really lovesick but I'm not actually in love with anyone. How the fuck does that even work? Now I remember why I try to forget that I have feelings 
Bubbavelli
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Welp that final is over. Time to eat wings, drink pints, and play video games with my friday night
Better than getting old feelings for ex-es. That's way worse, especially if you broke up with them because they hurt you.I feel really lovesick but I'm not actually in love with anyone. How the fuck does that even work? Now I remember why I try to forget that I have feelings
umop_3pisdn
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For sure.
It's just annoying and doesn't make much sense to me. I think being in contact with your feelings is sort of like when your foot goes asleep. If you keep it up consistently it's fine, but as soon as you go numb but then have to get feeling back, and start walking on it a little too early, it's all pins and needles and "wtf is this uncomfortable sensation".
Henchmen21
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Hey all
Hey (Hench)man. 😉
I think I know what you mean and I even experience it myself (though it's not as obvious to me, maybe because I don't really meditate).
Bravo. Get yourself some drinks to celebrate this achievement.
umop_3pisdn
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Honestly if you ever feel like opening the flood gates, metta is what is doing it for me. Interestingly the Buddha actually mentions that form of meditation in the sutras more often than mindfulness of breathing, yet it's surprisingly underrated. Maybe because cultivating a sincere intent is scary, it cuts through all of your cynicism. And I'm not being glib when I say that, I personally find it scary. I have a hating and fearful temperament though so it's good for me, but this medicine is giving me cough syrup burps rite now.
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I feel really lovesick but I'm not actually in love with anyone. How the fuck does that even work? Now I remember why I try to forget that I have feelings
I don't post here much but man I have the very same thing at the moment. It's like an extreme subconscious craving for a relationship. It's like, being lovesick in a relationship is painful enough but there's always the nice part as well. This is just the bad part with no benefits. Well, how convenient for us that relationships grow on trees and can also be bought at the supermarket just like everything else on earth.
umop_3pisdn
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I know!! *hugs* It's weird. I actually have some idea, like an actually realistic and personal idea, of what I want out of love and I think that's what is causing it. Before I didn't really know, it was just another image, another idea, with no real weight or shape to it. Now that it has an outline though I can identify with it.
umop_3pisdn
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I buy that. And for me the school term is ending, too, which is always kind of retrospective.
So I'm thinking of going to Los Angeles this February for my cousin's wedding (who's very religious, very republican, but I really like her, the American part of my family is so complicated) and to watch a hockey game, tips for stuff to do there? They live in a suburb between LA and Anaheim, I don't remember what their city is called, Whittier or something like that.
RatskyWatsky
Hunky Nostradamus
Hello, homosexuals
I come bearing gifts:
For Grakl and Bel Marduk:
I come bearing gifts:
For Grakl and Bel Marduk:
This semester really has me dispirited with school. I'm not sure that I want to do what I'm doing right now at all.
lmao, thanksHello, homosexuals
I come bearing gifts:
For Grakl and Bel Marduk:
And Bisexuals... #StopBiErasure
RatskyWatsky
Hunky Nostradamus
Gay saunas/bath houses are a great place to blow off some steam (among other things).
Quit. Life's too short to be dispirited.
Same. Those don't really suit him.
no such thing tbh
RatskyWatsky
Hunky Nostradamus
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Oh my, who is this lovely man?Hello, homosexuals
Bubbavelli
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Well I bought myself a six pack and Im about halfway through. Hello every one :3
Henchmen21
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Condoms or beer? ;p
Bubbavelli
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Unfortunately the latter :l
CornBurrito
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At the risk of making umop mad: that friend I am crushing on invited me to dinner with his parents after finals. I accepted.
How was your GS final?
RatskyWatsky
Hunky Nostradamus
I don't know!
Hire you? As what? :3
Thanks! i missed u 2 dari <3
Bubbavelli
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Ehhh idk. It was comprised of two essay questions. I feel like I aced one and I didn't even finish the other. I really just hope for a C. I really fucked up this semester.
Henchmen21
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I don't know!
Hire you? As what? :3
His personal sex slave?
umop_3pisdn
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Lol that's fine. I only got upset the last time because it seemed like you were pretty wrapped up in it which just kind of had me questioning your emotional sanity or whatever, but obviously I can't really tell that much just from words on a screen.
Guard, Butler, Chef, Living Toilet Scrubber.
Anything.
I'd have to pay most people to touch me, so likely not.
For my GS final we had several short essay questions. One of them was about Intersectionality in regards to the Women's Music Movement and Women-identified women - which is about a lot of theoretical and political analysis of women's roles and gender in Western societies. We read prompts from a lot of lesbian and women theory stuff, but it's all very confusing to me... I was just scribbling things on my paper. Writing down words trying to make it seem as if I am responding to the essay questions without actually saying anything. Terrible, but on the parts and some of the questions I did good. I just don't understand a lot of the political theory and women-identified-women rhetoric. But it's all very interesting and "high academia" in nature, which is probably why I struggled understanding even half of it. There's also a lot of context and background that we never covered.
Hello, homosexuals
I come bearing gifts:
ben cohen please rape me
Bubbavelli
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umop_3pisdn
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Yeah I feel it. Someone cuddle me and tell me its going to be all okay
The best I can do is give you a valium. But maybe someone else will cuddle you.
Why do you want a job so badly? I think I know why you need one, but those aren't necessarily the same thing.
Oh is it to pay for school shit?
umop_3pisdn
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Ah, that makes sense.
Just need to finish writing an Epistemology term paper over the weekend and write an Ethics final on Monday and I'm done
for the term
Yeah I feel it. Someone cuddle me and tell me its going to be all okay
It's going to be okay. Hug yourself for self cuddling. Unless you have someone to cuddle with already
Y'all a buncha crazy mothafuckas.
Take it outside!
That's good. How long are the papers?
I'll be happy to be back in school. I'm not sure if going back so soon was the absolute best choice, but it was either that or eat (or should I say spit out) 1200USD in insurance payments in the short term, and one of those two options is much more likely to piss off my dad.
Take it outside!
That's good. How long are the papers?
I'll be happy to be back in school. I'm not sure if going back so soon was the absolute best choice, but it was either that or eat (or should I say spit out) 1200USD in insurance payments in the short term, and one of those two options is much more likely to piss off my dad.
umop_3pisdn
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Only 2500 words, it should be pretty easy, but it's also the only second year philosophy class I've taken so I don't really have a feel for the expectations yet. I actually really liked epistemology, but it also occupies kind of a weird position being both really abstract yet attempting to address something relatively discrete and sensible at the same time ("knowledge"). I find I pick it up intuitively really quickly, but it's actually the structured writing assignments and presenting clear and concise arguments that I find kind of hard.
Going back to school is probably preferable. Sometimes it's the best place to idle, in a way, because oftentimes the stuff you learn is fairly unexpected. Like we did a section on philosophy of art in my ethics class, and I liked it a lot more than I thought I would. Sometimes it feels okay to be kind of idle, if you're still doing something moderately stimulating. Originally I went back to school this year because I was getting sick of working and I wanted to do something less mundane for a bit, and maybe end up with a degree at the end.
ab.aeterno
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Emotional sanity is overrated.
umop_3pisdn
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Honestly, having some experience with mood irregularity, compulsions, anxiety, and hyper self-reflection, I'm going to have to say no
But maybe emotional sanity as I had it defined in this case (I realize the above is not what you're talking about). Personally I'm a bit of romantic fool, romance is practically devoid of intellectualization for me and I sort of just wait for the tide to carry me away (which is maybe the sort of thing that you're talking about). Ironically what that means is I have to be very discriminating about what I dive into, or allow myself to become enmeshed in, or my foolishness loses any of the nobility it might otherwise have and I just become a sad fool
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This one was tough, BUT I CRACKED THE CASE.I don't know!
Korean bodybuilder and model Hwang Chul Soon! The jif in particular is from this music video.
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