Oh, you are taking about penis, huh. Bad Dragon.
Now that's a hell of a callback, lol.
And regarding the "acting gay" topic.. young men confuse me. My gaydar is so damn nonfunctional when it comes to guys under a certain age.
Try being around them all the time, lol. It can be frustratingly confusing.
It's easy when you're an IT guy and spend all your time behind PC. A friend of mine once said: "If you're in your late 20s and don't have a girlfriend it means you're either gay or an IT guy"
I can relate. My straight friends act gayer than my gay friends: all that sweet talking, ass/nipple grabbing, duck faces and all. It's all for fun, but still, it may make coming out even more difficult (or at least weirder).
True, being in IT does help a bit. But given most people know I can be perfectly social and one had a girlfriend, it doesn't help as much as I'd like, lol.
But for sure though, I know what you mean about straight friends. It's so funny. On the plus side, it has let me act fast and not only get away with it, but fit in better.
You should definitely find people you're comfortable with and come out to them when you feel the time is right. Yeah straight guys can be weird. I had friends who joked like that too, it was worse when I came out to one my friends, he joked about making out with me even more. It was confusing and awkward. You should come out when you feel comfortable.
Eh, I've been waiting to feel comfortable for... well, years too long. I've taken a lot of unexpected steps lately and overcome a lot of anxiety, and that feeling of progress in other things has been incredible. I think, as scary as it will be, I just need to do it. I know to some coming out is no big deal, but when hiding your identity has been a thing longer than having it (I didn't identify as gay right away, I really struggled to accept that, but I kept that struggle a secret), I know I need to do this or I won't be able to move on.
I know the who, at least. That's a big, recent win to even get that.
Oh jeez. That's a tough situation. Sorry dude.
Thanks man, I appreciate it. I don't think it'll ruin the friendship or anything, the person I'm speaking about and I are pretty tight and known each other forever. I just worry it would change the dynamic of the friendship, when I like that dynamic as-is.
My parents' religion factored into that mess of a day, to be honest. :/
It doesn't hurt for me to think about it most of the time - but some stuff happened last year at college and I broke down into ugly tears so I'm pretty sure I'm just repressing it. Never going to forget that day, anyways.
I'm really sorry man. I know what that's like, trust me. I've been there. I mostly repress bad memories and experiences like that too. Not healthy on the long run, but it let's me get by until I can deal with it someday.
Hope things are otherwise ok for you.
I'm turning 20 in a couple weeks.
Sigh.
lol. Spent half an hour trying to figure out a really simply coding problem and forgot the solution I needed was just using "+="
Yeah, that sounds like coding alright, haha. I've spent more time than I care for taking down what is ultimately a dumb mistake or typo.