Thank you for the comments everybody, I read them all and they meant a lot to me. I didn't intend to bring any negative vibes to the thread, I guess I've always kept everything bottled up in my life, and I just needed to get it out there. This is a positive community, so sorry again for being negative. Your words mean a lot to me. I always have ups and downs and I guess today was one of those days where I just felt down. Self diagnosis generally leads you to see things that aren't there, but I think regardless, these feelings that I have are true and inside of me, so regardless, I need to change and become happier. I hate myself and I guess I run away from my problems and try to avid facing them head on. I don't know if things will change, but I will try to love myself more and become a more positive person in the process, because in the end I just want everybody to be happy. Sorry for being a burden on everybody and from detracting from this threads positive vibes, I don't want to be an attention seeker who sucks all of the life out of the room, I guess I just needed somebody to listen. Hopefully this doesn't make people think lesser of me, or that I'm weak, I guess that line of thinking is why I kept everything inside in the first place. Thanks again, and thank you for the link to the mental health thread, I feel scared to post there but will keep it handy for the next time I'm feeling down and leave this thread for the anime Thanks.
no worries.