Well like I said, I'm trying to figure that out, but overall, I guess I'm riding solo this year. My ex could have waited AFTER the holidays, or you know, tried to work shit out with me and not hide what was going on. Fuck. To rub more salt in my wounds, she's already replaced me. I'm not even going into that. The whole thing is just laughable and cracks me the hell up.
It's not so much that she got rid of me for someone else, it's that I'm alone and have no one to call my own. I could give a fuck what she does or what she says at this point. But it just sucks so much ass not having someone special. Sure, I have friends and family, but nothing beats having that one special person to spend time with, especially during this time of year. It seems like everyone I know is spending time with their girlfriends, boyfriends, husbands, wives, partners and significant others. I feel so left out man....
This is the first holiday season, in a long time, where I haven't had a girlfriend of some kind. Old, depressing feelings are starting to set in. But I'm fighting back and doing my best to thwart them. Video games, various art projects, new girls and booze will help me cope :lol