I really wish I could be excited for these games. The Olympics are the thing I’ve loved the most for most of my life. I’ve been watching them since LA in 84 when I was just 5. I’ve recorded them, watched them over and over, studied the games, and supported them in so many ways. The games coming to Japan which has become my home the past 15 years was a dream come true, cause finally I could go to the games and fulfill a lifelong dream. When I got my two tickets to them in 2019 I was happier than anyone can imagine.
then Covid happened. The delay, the constant promises that everything would be all right, that the games would go on and we would all celebrate and be united and that at least those of us in Japan could go. Then two weeks ago, they took away my dream. When they announced that almost all spectators would be banned I was heartbroken and dejected beyond belief. I found myself in tears for days and it’s still causing me depression and sadness. Yes it was the decision that had to be made now, but only cause the people running it are insanely stubborn and refused to delay one more year even though it’s what most people here wanted. Now we have a games that so many people are angry is still going on here and will leave a legacy that is guaranteed to be viewed as the worst games due to the situation and the eventual cost overruns from it.
as for me, I tried today to watch even a minute of the games but it was two painful. 40 years of my life waiting for this moment. Eight years of planning to go all wasted. And barely any meaningful apologies from those in charge. It’s so sad for me to feel this way. The Olympics always bring me joy. But this one brings me nothing but heartache and depression