Nothing really. Im trying to sleep but negative thoughts are keeping me awake. Summer's my low point so it's pretty easy for me to slip into a low mood around this time, especially when there aren't any people around. So it's a lot of me being somewhat upset over this conundrum. I feel like I landed myself in my current stagnant-ass life just by being shitty over the past few years. It's a bit of not having my priorities in order, being indecisive, putting more effort into others lives than I did my own, depression, etc. So essentially it's my own damn fault, which is fine because I'm more than willing to try and fix it. That's what you're supposed to do, right? Fix your mistakes instead of dwelling on them. But nothing is really coming together well because of a perfect storm of bad coincidences, amd the things that are coming together are time sensitive so I have to wait them out. It's frustrating, and for the time being I don't really have anywhere to vent aside from this.
Sorry about the rant.