Yeah that whole Damiya phase is really nothing I'm proud of. It was a period where I was super edgy about everything because some of my other league friends were joking about it. Honestly, once I realized the gravity of the situation I stopped and realized what a terrible human being I am. I almost lost a close friend to suicide and I'm honestly disgusted at myself for joking about it. I'm not trying to justify my actions, but it's the truth of the situation. i don't talk to those guys anymore.
I figured that I would just leave it all behind and start new but it looks like my attempt at redemption backfired completely. Oh well. I'm not gonna try to sugarcoat how much of a douche I can be.
Think what you want of me, but I am honestly sorry for what I've done. That was a dark time in my life.
And the most recent one was 17 days ago. I know it may seem recent but I haven't said anything like it since. One guy called me out on it on another forum and I reflected on it. I don't want to try to make it seem like I'm trying to justify my actions because believe me I'm not.
Believe me or not, it's the honest truth. You guys can report me or whatever. I'll take the ban. I'm sorry for being terrible to everyone.