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[terrisus]

Haha thanks guys .

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Im only 23 tho! ^^;

It's the body hair.

Seriously, other people are just jealous of our Italian body hair <3

 

[mantidor]

INTJ cis male gay as always although the NTJ have been more fluid in recent years.

Gender identification is an odd thing for me, I identify as male, but I do not like to express masculinity, however I also do not like to express femininity, I sometimes think it was the loving but homophobic environment I grew up in, while I had all the support and love in the world I was indirectly bullied by all the homophobic comments and I think I identified it at such a young age that I simply blocked any kind of sexual identifiers, I just wanted to be an asexual and hated the process of puberty and growing up, I wanted to be a sexless alien. My family probably thought that was my personality and never questioned it or challenged it, ironically they accepted me for "who I was".

Now I even let my beard grow, which would have been inconceivable to me merely 5-6 years ago. Therapy worked I guess however masculinity is not something I pursue for myself, although I do actually needed in the people I date, it's complicated.

 

[Dead Prince]

Thanks, at least someone think so!

Been working really hard at the gym and being consistent with it. Now I can't imagine my daily routine without it.

Same. I get all ansty when I'm not there. Can't miss a day !
Also. Apparently tomlrrow is leg day but doing it with some guy lol. Mostly squats.

I'm going to get wrecked.

 

[BlueBadger]

It's the body hair.

Seriously, other people are just jealous of our Italian body hair <3

Ugh. I have to work so hard to maintain it, it's ridiculous :'(

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so sometimes when i'm lazy i just.. don't maintain it.. :X

 

[terrisus]

Ugh. I have to work so hard to maintain it, it's ridiculous :'(

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so sometimes when i'm lazy i just.. don't maintain it.. :X

Let it do its thing, I say.


P.S.

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No one should ever actually take style tips from me >.>

 

[Necromanti]

I think I just saw Bill Trinen on the bus I was on. That was weird.

 

[Thequietone]

I think I just saw Bill Trinen on the bus I was on. That was weird.

Cant pay him enough to own a car?

 

[Necromanti]

Cant pay him enough to own a car?

He had a bike with him! Maybe it's an exercise thing.

 

[VICTORsaurio]

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so sometimes when i'm lazy i just.. don't maintain it.. :X

Expectations for my birthday picture just went trough the roof.

 

[Deleted member 465307]

D: Were you ill? At any rate, I'm glad you're doing better now.

Mentally, yeah. Kind of just fell into a dark place. It happens from time to time though, so it's whatever. It's over for now, and that's good enough.

That certainly sounds promising! Are you going to pursue him?

I think, maybe, yeah? I'm not sure. We've been talking again today and I feel like it is going really well. I'm honestly really enjoying it because it's fun, funny, and a tiny bit flirty, which is exactly the tone I was hoping for. We also have a lot in common, which is surprising. The only rough spot was that he made a comment at one point about sending nudes, and honestly, it kind of freaked me out. I wasn't 100% sure he was joking (it was definitely a possibility), but I just deflected it with a joke and continued the discussion as it had been. I think I handled it pretty smoothly. In his response that continued the "get-to-know-you" stuff, he did mention that it was a joke and that I could disregard his message, but honestly, who knows. Since then, it has returned to our conversation from before, so that's good.

However, the fact that I freaked out a bit with his nudes comment (I actually started getting a little emotional, i.e. throat constricting, eyes almost tearing up) is very disappointing. I think I thought that it was affirming one of my fears I have about what people prioritize when looking for a relationship and what dating in the gay world can be like. There's nothing wrong with prioritizing physical stuff, but it's just not for me. Also, pretty much all of my "almost" encounters with other men have been people being physically sexually aggressive with me in ways that I haven't been comfortable with, resulting in me finding ways to "escape"; the sudden suggestion of photos made me think of those times for whatever reason. I've always had a very complicated and emotionally negative relationship with sex that I've never understood and I'm still trying to figure out (the topic and related experiences at various points has made me nauseated, cry, almost faint, etc.). Even if I wouldn't want nudes this early no matter what, I'm still disappointed at how worked up I got about it. (Typing this response inexplicably made me very emotional again)

Maybe my reaction is just a sign that I'm not ready for something, but I also don't know what would make me ready.

EDIT: Maybe I'm just having a rough week or something. I don't know. TL;DR: On my end, the conversation is going well and I think I'm interested. I'm wary of my own readiness for anything though.

 

[Thequietone]

Mentally, yeah. Kind of just fell into a dark place. It happens from time to time though, so it's whatever. It's over for now, and that's good enough.



I think, maybe, yeah? I'm not sure. We've been talking again today and I feel like it is going really well. I'm honestly really enjoying it because it's fun, funny, and a tiny bit flirty, which is exactly the tone I was hoping for. We also have a lot in common, which is surprising. The only rough spot was that he made a comment at one point about sending nudes, and honestly, it kind of freaked me out. I wasn't 100% sure he was joking (it was definitely a possibility), but I just deflected it with a joke and continued the discussion as it had been. I think I handled it pretty smoothly. In his response that continued the "get-to-know-you" stuff, he did mention that it was a joke and that I could disregard his message, but honestly, who knows. Since then, it has returned to our conversation from before, so that's good.

However, the fact that I freaked out a bit with his nudes comment (I actually started getting a little emotional, i.e. throat constricting, eyes almost tearing up) is very disappointing. I think I thought that it was affirming one of my fears I have about what people prioritize when looking for a relationship and what dating in the gay world can be like. There's nothing wrong with prioritizing physical stuff, but it's just not for me. Also, pretty much all of my "almost" encounters with other men have been people being physically sexually aggressive with me in ways that I haven't been comfortable with, resulting in me finding ways to "escape"; the sudden suggestion of photos made me think of those times for whatever reason. I've always had a very complicated and emotionally negative relationship with sex that I've never understood and I'm still trying to figure out (the topic and related experiences at various points has made me nauseated, cry, almost faint, etc.). Even if I wouldn't want nudes this early no matter what, I'm still disappointed at how worked up I got about it. (Typing this response inexplicably made me very emotional again)

Maybe my reaction is just a sign that I'm not ready for something, but I also don't know what would make me ready.

EDIT: Maybe I'm just having a rough week or something. I don't know. TL;DR: On my end, the conversation is going well and I think I'm interested. I'm wary of my own readiness for anything though.

I got teary eyed reading this. Dont worry you'll find someone eventually. I used to go into dark places alot, too. I still do sometimes. I know I am new to this community but if you need to talk to someone you can talk to me.

 

[Subaru]

Mentally, yeah. Kind of just fell into a dark place. It happens from time to time though, so it's whatever. It's over for now, and that's good enough.

I think, maybe, yeah? I'm not sure. We've been talking again today and I feel like it is going really well. I'm honestly really enjoying it because it's fun, funny, and a tiny bit flirty, which is exactly the tone I was hoping for. We also have a lot in common, which is surprising. The only rough spot was that he made a comment at one point about sending nudes, and honestly, it kind of freaked me out. I wasn't 100% sure he was joking (it was definitely a possibility), but I just deflected it with a joke and continued the discussion as it had been. I think I handled it pretty smoothly. In his response that continued the "get-to-know-you" stuff, he did mention that it was a joke and that I could disregard his message, but honestly, who knows. Since then, it has returned to our conversation from before, so that's good.

However, the fact that I freaked out a bit with his nudes comment (I actually started getting a little emotional, i.e. throat constricting, eyes almost tearing up) is very disappointing. I think I thought that it was affirming one of my fears I have about what people prioritize when looking for a relationship and what dating in the gay world can be like. There's nothing wrong with prioritizing physical stuff, but it's just not for me. Also, pretty much all of my "almost" encounters with other men have been people being physically sexually aggressive with me in ways that I haven't been comfortable with, resulting in me finding ways to "escape"; the sudden suggestion of photos made me think of those times for whatever reason. I've always had a very complicated and emotionally negative relationship with sex that I've never understood and I'm still trying to figure out (the topic and related experiences at various points has made me nauseated, cry, almost faint, etc.). Even if I wouldn't want nudes this early no matter what, I'm still disappointed at how worked up I got about it. (Typing this response inexplicably made me very emotional again)

Maybe my reaction is just a sign that I'm not ready for something, but I also don't know what would make me ready.

Have you ever tried seeing a therapist? That can help!

If you want to talk to someone, please count on me. =)

 

[BlueBadger]

Expectations for my birthday picture just went trough the roof.

Uh oh ;____; what have I done hahahah!

 

[DOWN]

Loving the pics

Rainy days are the best gym days!

I'm not daring enough to wear athletic tops yet so I just do solid t shirts. Looking good km

As a bonus, here's a pic that I had recently taken of myself.

Is that outfit inspired by anything cultural, or was it just a sort of style shoot? Looks cool

Got my new phone yesterday as a pre-birthday gift from myself

you look a bit like DyslexicAlucard, which is a good thing. He has good glasses too. Paging DyslexicAlucard

Viva Italia

Also, happy birthday!! <3

Yo you've talked about those soccer legs before but I had no idea. A+

 

[hateradio]

Sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee-it, already with the selfie sticks?




I couldn't find the old thread in the subscriptions, so I figured there was a new one.

 

[hateradio]

Mine is IHET.

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I hate everything. Not just limited to radio!

 

[Hours Left]

I always get rather INFJ or ENFJ from those tests. I guess I like to switch between being introverted and extroverted.

 

[DOWN]

INTJ

 

[VegiHam]

I'm ENTP. I never meet other ENTPs. My housemates, though, are ENFJ, like some people in this thread. That mostly works out okay, except ENFJs have this whole 'avoid conflict at all costs' thing going on which means they'll go a whole year avoiding telling me I'm doing something wrong and annoying them just to avoid an awkward conversation.

 

[dragonlife]

I test INTP or INTJ, usually. Mostly the former.

 

[Hours Left]

I'm ENTP. I never meet other ENTPs. My housemates, though, are ENFJ, like some people in this thread. That mostly works out okay, except ENFJs have this whole 'avoid conflict at all costs' thing going on which means they'll go a whole year avoiding telling me I'm doing something wrong and annoying them just to avoid an awkward conversation.

I know these are just broad personality profiles, but that would definitely be a part of the ENFJ type that I don't tend to follow, despite often being classified as one.

I don't have an issue directly addressing problems, but I do always want to resolve them in the most positive way possible, but I guess that could be another way of interpreting that particular trait.

 

[Kangi]

ISTJ.

 

[BlueBadger]

Yo you've talked about those soccer legs before but I had no idea. A+

Hahah aw shucks.. Thank you ^////^. They're a pain to dress sometimes :X.

 

[Prototype Viktor]

I test as MEMYSELFANDI

 

[unity of the void]

Is that outfit inspired by anything cultural, or was it just a sort of style shoot? Looks cool

Nothing specific, I just wanted to look like a time-independent sand witch haha. The robe I'm wearing I actually wear to do artwork in, so it has a bit of personal meaning - like a creativity cap or something. Thanks!

 

[Vitanimus]

ISFJ master race

 

[Deleted member 465307]

I got teary eyed reading this. Dont worry you'll find someone eventually. I used to go into dark places alot, too. I still do sometimes. I know I am new to this community but if you need to talk to someone you can talk to me.

-snip-

Have you ever tried seeing a therapist? That can help!

If you want to talk to someone, please count on me. =)

Thanks for the considerate and supportive messages. I've already taken up a lot of space on this page, so I don't want to say much. I really appreciate you taking the time to read what I wrote though.

Subaru, I've never gone to therapy, but I have thought about it over the years. It's a complicated option but one I continue to investigate. Also, I'm glad you have such a successful story to share.

 

[Kater]

Got ISFP when taking the test again just now.

 

[kitchenmotors]

u r fab dont fret

Thanks bb. <3

Same. I get all ansty when I'm not there. Can't miss a day !
Also. Apparently tomlrrow is leg day but doing it with some guy lol. Mostly squats.

I'm going to get wrecked.

Today was arm day, tore it up for 85 minutes. Now I'm sore, haha.

Loving the pics

I'm not daring enough to wear athletic tops yet so I just do solid t shirts. Looking good km

Thanks! I'm starting to show some decent progress so I don't mind wearing them, plus it helps when I have arm day and can see how pumped my muscles get. Good motivation.

 

[scarlet]

ISFJ master race

Twinsies!

 

[RedfieldSandwich]

Hey guys.

I'm torn between Wimbledon and playing Tomb Raider: DE. I love days off.

 

[scarlet]

Hey guys.

I'm torn between Wimbledon and playing Tomb Raider: DE. I love days off.

Wimbledon!

http://www.neogaf.com/forum/showthread.php?t=1071308

 

[Dead Prince]

Today was arm day, tore it up for 85 minutes. Now I'm sore, haha.



Thanks! I'm starting to show some decent progress so I don't mind wearing them, plus it helps when I have arm day and can see how pumped my muscles get. Good motivation.

i gotta up my arm game. well arms and and chest. my upper body strength is still weak lol.

gonna go for a PR on squats though. trying 1RM for 315lbs @ 190lbs.

last week it was 225lbs. 3x4. Did some back and shoulder to gear it up today.
this when he does arm or chest. http://www.vitaminshoppe.com/p/purus-labs-noxygen-92-g-powder/w5-1010#.VZ0m0FVVhBc lol

 

[RedfieldSandwich]

Wimbledon!

http://www.neogaf.com/forum/showthread.php?t=1071308

Let me bask in my Serena love.

 

[scarlet]

Let me bask in my Serena love.

THE QUEEN

 

[terrisus]

Hey guys.

I'm torn between Wimbledon and playing Tomb Raider: DE. I love days off.

Wimbledon!

http://www.neogaf.com/forum/showthread.php?t=1071308

Are Agassi and Sampras going to be there?!

...
Oh, wait, I'm in the wrong decade again >.>

 

[Haly]

I don't care for most Myers-Briggs or other personality tests - especially the more simplistic ones like the "true colors" test that they coerced me into taking both in 7th grade

I'm a beautiful shade of Cerulean and nothing you say can convince me otherwise.

 

[RedfieldSandwich]

Are Agassi and Sampras going to be there?!

...
Oh, wait, I'm in the wrong decade again >.>

There's always time for Pete.

 

[terrisus]

There's always time for Pete.

That shot on Agassi in the text - ouch.

 

[Berordn]

We talking Meyers-Briggs up in here? INFP represent.

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I've never put any faith into it.

 

[Sheik]

Hello fellow INTPer!

High five! We can worry endlessly about our self-fulfilling failures together.

I just wanted to say that I appreciate your avatar and that I seriously thought about making one for that same character in that exact same scene.

You should! The more Commander Lexa, the better. I swear if they kill her off I will light things on fire. I hope they mention her at the upcoming The 100 Comic-Con panel.

 

[Elitist1945]

When your family doesn't know you're bi but you accidentally leave gay porn open on the computer and they see.

God damnit.

 

[Razmos]

When your family doesn't know you're bi but you accidentally leave gay porn open on the computer and they see.

God damnit.

Yikes, let us know how that situation unfolds, I hope they take it well.

 

[Elitist1945]

Yikes, let us know how that situation unfolds, I hope they take it well.

We'll see if they bring it up. I feel stupid so I'm just staying in my room for the day.

 

[terrisus]

When your family doesn't know you're bi but you accidentally leave gay porn open on the computer and they see.

God damnit.

"It was a pop-up that came up after I closed something/while I was away?"

EDIT: Oops, wasn't intending for this to be the top-of-page post.
Let me find a picture if we're still doing that.

and to provide a counterbalance:

 

[Elitist1945]

"It was a pop-up that came up after I closed something/while I was away?"

Yup I'll probably attempt some excuse similar to that.

 

[Razmos]

Yup I'll probably attempt some excuse similar to that.

Is your family religious or something? is there a reason why you want to keep it a secret?

 

[Symphonia]

Is your family religious or something? is there a reason why you want to keep it a secret?

To be fair, my family still don't know about me being bisexual, nor do any of my friends.

 

[Elitist1945]

Is your family religious or something? is there a reason why you want to keep it a secret?

No they've told me and my siblings several times its okay if we were homosexual or something, I just feel like telling them would be super awkward.

 

[Razmos]

No they've told me and my siblings several times its okay if we were homosexual or something, I just feel like telling them would be super awkward.

Then this is a good opportunity to get it out in the open maybe. Don't say anything and if they bring it up just say yeah, sorry.
I was outed because of the same reason. It was briefly awkward but after that it was all good, it saved me the trouble of formally coming out to them and all the stress and anxiety that builds up to that.

Your family sounds great, you should be able to be your whole self around them.
Just something to consider while you have the chance