It's good to have a dog but honestly you can be surrounded by people and still feel completely alone. The only two ways to fix that are to find people who you enjoy being around, or learn to embrace being alone. The second one can actually be used to kill time until you accomplish the first one, but damn does it suck when it's just you and you don't know how to deal with it, especially when it's because everyone else is already busy spending time with their SO's, mostly because it feels like you're both losing your friend and is a reminder or how alone you are, and you can't just hit fast forward on your life waiting for things to work out, because sometimes it isn't that easy, and you end up missing out on more instead of gaining more because you were on autopilot the whole time. Learned all of this these past few years and it seems like this is the year where I finally started sorting all of it out in my brain.
I think this post is a result of me being really tired because I know that I have to go to work at 6:30AM tomorrow morning and the strange ability that my bed has cause me to reflect on things.