tl;dr - relationship stuff. I love these kinds of conversations, so I wanted to chime in.
If you do it for yourself that is the important part. I don't think orientation matters, we all run into the same problems, that's just part of human relationships. Do what makes you happy.
I could understand how one would be more predisposed to considering gear if your motivations were based on external feedback, for the same reasons that internal motivation would be diametrically opposed to outside influence or "cheating".
Everyone is another person and to imagine the perfect robot will come along is a disservice to you and them. Trying to be the perfect robot will backfire eventually because you are a human silly!
I think if you are seriously considering gear you should take 5 hits of LSD instead. At the very least, you will learn a lot more about yourself and the interconnected nature of Universe. "Universe consists of non-simultaneously apprehended events" - RBF
I had my heart shattered by a significant other of 8 years and I really beat myself up internally for all the "creep" I allowed in my life, those habits which created the physical manifestation of my poor neglected body. I blamed myself for a lot of things and it took me a long time to forgive myself, even longer to forgive the other party. I remember one of our last arguments, she said something along the lines of how I deserved someone way more attractive than her anyways, so I shouldn't even care how this shook down.
So in my mind I went back to when we met, when I was in that physical shape (18) and I sort of seized up at the schism between then and where I was at that point as an overweight smoker with no girlfriend (26). It was heart breaking on an internal level but the motivation was buried deep down there.
I made a few lame ass attempts to set up dates with women who I felt were attractive, at least twice and the shame at rejection just made me sink even deeper into internal focus and training. If I wanted to be with a girl who looks like a 7, I need to be a 9, right now I am a 3, etc. This was my thought process. It still kind of is. But a fucked up thing happened along the way.
People began changing in response to me, particularly when I am out in public clearly comfortable mostly naked in front of strangers, they just assume I am gay. I actually have spoken with women who said they were too intimidated by my physical appearance because I look "perfect" to them. In my experience in Vegas at the club swims, only "alpha" women will approach me and even then it is just so obvious as to be unattractive in and of itself, which is weird because they are all 8+ and wasn't that exactly what I was looking for? Not so fast, junior!
When I was at my local Pride festival there was a really cute 20 something girl who kept glancing at me really shyly throughout the day (she was wearing a specific hat so it was easy to notice) so a few hours after my performances I saw her milling around and walked up to her and said "hey, you know you are BEAUTIFUL?" and her face got all red and she got super flustered and replied "UGH SHUT UP you don't actually feel that way stop trying to make me FEEL BETTER" ...
In another example, I hadn't been with a woman in a sickening amount of time (several hundred days) and when we initiated sexual relations, ten minutes into it, her face got super red and she kept glancing at me and then glancing away. I kind of paused and asked "uhhh am I making you uncomfortable"? She says "Oh no, it's not that it's just... you're just... SO attractive, it is making me feel really self conscious"... SO YES, the answer was YES? All of this super sexiness I have worked so hard for, which in my mind was a prerequisite to this even occurring, is now making you super self conscious and unhappy? Infinite cosmic laughter echoed throughout the recesses of my brain, I can assure you that much.
So just KEEP DOING YOU and forget the rest. You can't make everyone happy, even when you think you are, someone will surprise the fuck out of you. Not. Your. Problem.
Edit: I am reminded of this fantastic track ~
India.Arie - Just Do You