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For sure, and congrats to it on winning for real time rendering last week. Not GOTY material, but I really enjoyed the package.In that case, was The Order: 1886 one of your gaming highlights last year?
For sure, and congrats to it on winning for real time rendering last week. Not GOTY material, but I really enjoyed the package.In that case, was The Order: 1886 one of your gaming highlights last year?
I was really down on my body a few years ago, transition has turned me into an urban farmgirl who loves to show off skin and tease.This sounds really beautiful to me. I don't think I could be a part of anything like it since I'm pretty self conscious about my body.
Well, I am Canadian.Sounds satanic and communist!
limited save > your fave
Enjoying solitude does not make you a lazy coward! If you need to talk just PM me, and I can make you feel better when I visit Ohio.
Those are some nice legs. 😋And such a relationship may not be for you if you're wanting sex from many parties all the time, lol. Are you content being with one partner for long stretches and gradual exploration with good people?
I've literally never watched the Pooper Bowl, so don't feel bad. ;-)I got invited to watch the super bowl today with some friends that i kinda know, like i wanted to go but i was so tired from this weekend and just kinda done with social stuff for this weekend. I had met so many people this weekend and going to the concert that it all drained me.
This probably one of the first years where i havent watched the superbowl in a long time, i dont really care about sports that much anymore.
Loved the halftime show, and yes, white America aka my fam had a breakdown only during her part
You used to be cool.
not my tumblr
not my tumblr
guys im relapsing on a crush. the FOMO is real right now
No the issue goes far deeper than that. I think it stems as far back as 5th grade.
Until 5th grade, I had a very close knit group of friends. We hung out at recess, played yugioh, played video games, ate lunch together. It was all very good. Then puberty starts to hit. Their interests shift away from those things. To girls, guitar, football. 3 things I never really developed any interest in. I was all noticeably smaller and weaker than the rest of the guys in class. I think that took quite a toll on my self confidence. And until 7th grade I really had no close friends. Then in 7th grade I developed a close friendship with two girls. One of the girls ended up falling in love with me which really made the friendship super awkward and bad. But the main point is that I went from having a solid group of male friends, to two female friends. And both of those girls were fairly unpopular. Never got invited to parties really. So I think I ended up becoming a bit socially stunted. I never really developed the skills to handle larger groups of people. Or even medium groups of people.
And I realize this, but I don't have the work ethic to fix it. Or I'm too much of a coward to fix it. I could force myself to go to bars and clubs, but I just can't do it. Not alone I don't think. But the problem is I can't make a friend that will do that stuff with me. Or at least not a friend in this area. And then I fear if I make a friend willing to do that, they'll discover what a loser I am. Like I went to get drinks/dinner with my coworkers after work. I ended up asking some question and then one of them asked me how many people I've slept with. I told them it wasn't their business and they said "that means zero." And then I said some low but nonzero number. Which I mean is still in loser territory but them thinking it was zero would have been worse. But the fact that they even asked that means that just from a single dinner they could tell there was something faulty with me.
And then if all that doesn't turn someone away, and I make a friend willing to go out into the world with me, that person basically would be a security blanket. Which would almost certainly turn them away. Because nobody wants someone to have to practically cling to them in order to be able to go to some large party.
Idk... I want to go out. I want to travel. I want to see the world. But I'm too big a coward to do it alone, and too lazy/scared to take the steps necessary to change that.
Like I went to get drinks/dinner with my coworkers after work. I ended up asking some question and then one of them asked me how many people I've slept with. I told them it wasn't their business and they said "that means zero." And then I said some low but nonzero number. Which I mean is still in loser territory but them thinking it was zero would have been worse. But the fact that they even asked that means that just from a single dinner they could tell there was something faulty with me.
Everybody is downstairs watching the Superbowl and I'm just upstairs in my room crying after finishing Life is Strange for the first time.
Like I went to get drinks/dinner with my coworkers after work. I ended up asking some question and then one of them asked me how many people I've slept with. I told them it wasn't their business and they said "that means zero." And then I said some low but nonzero number. Which I mean is still in loser territory but them thinking it was zero would have been worse. But the fact that they even asked that means that just from a single dinner they could tell there was something faulty with me.
Idk... I want to travel. I want to see the world. But I'm too big a coward to do it alone, and too lazy/scared to take the steps necessary to change that.
No the issue goes far deeper than that. I think it stems as far back as 5th grade.
Until 5th grade, I had a very close knit group of friends. We hung out at recess, played yugioh, played video games, ate lunch together. It was all very good. Then puberty starts to hit. Their interests shift away from those things. To girls, guitar, football. 3 things I never really developed any interest in. I was all noticeably smaller and weaker than the rest of the guys in class. I think that took quite a toll on my self confidence. And until 7th grade I really had no close friends. Then in 7th grade I developed a close friendship with two girls. One of the girls ended up falling in love with me which really made the friendship super awkward and bad. But the main point is that I went from having a solid group of male friends, to two female friends. And both of those girls were fairly unpopular. Never got invited to parties really. So I think I ended up becoming a bit socially stunted. I never really developed the skills to handle larger groups of people. Or even medium groups of people.
And I realize this, but I don't have the work ethic to fix it. Or I'm too much of a coward to fix it. I could force myself to go to bars and clubs, but I just can't do it. Not alone I don't think. But the problem is I can't make a friend that will do that stuff with me. Or at least not a friend in this area. And then I fear if I make a friend willing to do that, they'll discover what a loser I am. Like I went to get drinks/dinner with my coworkers after work. I ended up asking some question and then one of them asked me how many people I've slept with. I told them it wasn't their business and they said "that means zero." And then I said some low but nonzero number. Which I mean is still in loser territory but them thinking it was zero would have been worse. But the fact that they even asked that means that just from a single dinner they could tell there was something faulty with me.
And then if all that doesn't turn someone away, and I make a friend willing to go out into the world with me, that person basically would be a security blanket. Which would almost certainly turn them away. Because nobody wants someone to have to practically cling to them in order to be able to go to some large party.
Idk... I want to go out. I want to travel. I want to see the world. But I'm too big a coward to do it alone, and too lazy/scared to take the steps necessary to change that.
What is up with that bolded part? Did you ask them a similar question? Or make some comment about sex that they then took as a sign of ignorance? Because that question is a weird one and really needs the proper context for that to be okay. I hope you're imagining the fact that they'd see virgins as "losers" because I can't imagine wanting to be friends with or work with people who see that in that way. Based on your story, I'd say your coworkers really suck, but I don't have the full story, so I'll hold off on that judgment.
As for everything else, I'd say start with small steps. Focus on making a close friend or two first, and if you fail in the beginning, don't take it as a sign that you always will.
If someone genuinely cares about you and can understand your situation, I think they'll be willing to help you to some degree with going out. I mean, I would. The phrase that comes to mind is "Kindness begets kindness." But first, I think you should start with making some close friends and then go from there, trying not to assume how people will act. What you're hoping to achieve could naturally develop once things get moving.
First of all, my cutiepie CornBurrito, it sounds like that guy is a total asshole. Anyone who would look down on you for the number of sexual encounters you've had isn't someone you want to befriend. Nothing is "faulty" with you. Don't be so quick to blame yourself! Waiting for the right guy to be intimate with is the smart choice.I ended up asking some question and then one of them asked me how many people I've slept with. I told them it wasn't their business and they said "that means zero." And then I said some low but nonzero number. Which I mean is still in loser territory but them thinking it was zero would have been worse. But the fact that they even asked that means that just from a single dinner they could tell there was something faulty with me.
CB you're making me want to spill my story of social inadequacy.No the issue goes far deeper than that. I think it stems as far back as 5th grade.
Until 5th grade, I had a very close knit group of friends. We hung out at recess, played yugioh, played video games, ate lunch together. It was all very good. Then puberty starts to hit. Their interests shift away from those things. To girls, guitar, football. 3 things I never really developed any interest in. I was all noticeably smaller and weaker than the rest of the guys in class. I think that took quite a toll on my self confidence. And until 7th grade I really had no close friends. Then in 7th grade I developed a close friendship with two girls. One of the girls ended up falling in love with me which really made the friendship super awkward and bad. But the main point is that I went from having a solid group of male friends, to two female friends. And both of those girls were fairly unpopular. Never got invited to parties really. So I think I ended up becoming a bit socially stunted. I never really developed the skills to handle larger groups of people. Or even medium groups of people.
And I realize this, but I don't have the work ethic to fix it. Or I'm too much of a coward to fix it. I could force myself to go to bars and clubs, but I just can't do it. Not alone I don't think. But the problem is I can't make a friend that will do that stuff with me. Or at least not a friend in this area. And then I fear if I make a friend willing to do that, they'll discover what a loser I am. Like I went to get drinks/dinner with my coworkers after work. I ended up asking some question and then one of them asked me how many people I've slept with. I told them it wasn't their business and they said "that means zero." And then I said some low but nonzero number. Which I mean is still in loser territory but them thinking it was zero would have been worse. But the fact that they even asked that means that just from a single dinner they could tell there was something faulty with me.
And then if all that doesn't turn someone away, and I make a friend willing to go out into the world with me, that person basically would be a security blanket. Which would almost certainly turn them away. Because nobody wants someone to have to practically cling to them in order to be able to go to some large party.
Idk... I want to go out. I want to travel. I want to see the world. But I'm too big a coward to do it alone, and too lazy/scared to take the steps necessary to change that.
FOMO--->Fear Of Missing OutI thought his wall was on fire.
FOMO?
When in doubt, challange your crush to fighting game match. Particularly mortal kombat.
Yeah. They made some hand gesture that I was pretty sure was "fingering a vagina" or something, and then asked for confirmation.
I dont think they realize I'm gay.
I also don't know how/where to make a close friend. I work full time. I dont think I'll get close to coworkers.
Yeah thats a pretty mean thing to say. I hate when you dont want to answer something and then they got to be assholes and do stuff like that. I usually defend people when others start doing that to them, because it is a really annoying and shitty thing to do and its happen to me so i know how it feels.What is up with that bolded part? Did you ask them a similar question? Or make some comment about sex that they then took as a sign of ignorance? Because that question is a weird one and really needs the proper context for that to be okay. I hope you're imagining the fact that they'd see virgins as "losers" because I can't imagine wanting to be friends with or work with people who see that in that way. Based on your story, I'd say your coworkers really suck, but I don't have the full story, so I'll hold off on that judgment.
As for everything else, I'd say start with small steps. Focus on making a close friend or two first, and if you fail in the beginning, don't take it as a sign that you always will.
If someone genuinely cares about you and can understand your situation, I think they'll be willing to help you to some degree with going out. I mean, I would. The phrase that comes to mind is "Kindness begets kindness." But first, I think you should start with making some close friends and then go from there, trying not to assume how people will act. What you're hoping to achieve could naturally develop once things get moving.
Was it the classic *index finger going through circle made with other hand*? I think I first encountered that on a TV show as a euphemism for sex, but I don't know if I've ever seen anyone do it in real life unironically.
Probably not. Woo heteronormativity.
No the issue goes far deeper than that. I think it stems as far back as 5th grade.
Until 5th grade, I had a very close knit group of friends. We hung out at recess, played yugioh, played video games, ate lunch together. It was all very good. Then puberty starts to hit. Their interests shift away from those things. To girls, guitar, football. 3 things I never really developed any interest in. I was all noticeably smaller and weaker than the rest of the guys in class. I think that took quite a toll on my self confidence. And until 7th grade I really had no close friends. Then in 7th grade I developed a close friendship with two girls. One of the girls ended up falling in love with me which really made the friendship super awkward and bad. But the main point is that I went from having a solid group of male friends, to two female friends. And both of those girls were fairly unpopular. Never got invited to parties really. So I think I ended up becoming a bit socially stunted. I never really developed the skills to handle larger groups of people. Or even medium groups of people.
And I realize this, but I don't have the work ethic to fix it. Or I'm too much of a coward to fix it. I could force myself to go to bars and clubs, but I just can't do it. Not alone I don't think. But the problem is I can't make a friend that will do that stuff with me. Or at least not a friend in this area. And then I fear if I make a friend willing to do that, they'll discover what a loser I am. Like I went to get drinks/dinner with my coworkers after work. I ended up asking some question and then one of them asked me how many people I've slept with. I told them it wasn't their business and they said "that means zero." And then I said some low but nonzero number. Which I mean is still in loser territory but them thinking it was zero would have been worse. But the fact that they even asked that means that just from a single dinner they could tell there was something faulty with me.
And then if all that doesn't turn someone away, and I make a friend willing to go out into the world with me, that person basically would be a security blanket. Which would almost certainly turn them away. Because nobody wants someone to have to practically cling to them in order to be able to go to some large party.
Idk... I want to go out. I want to travel. I want to see the world. But I'm too big a coward to do it alone, and too lazy/scared to take the steps necessary to change that.
this is the gayest post I've ever seen lmaoEverybody is downstairs watching the Superbowl and I'm just upstairs in my room crying after finishing Life is Strange for the first time.
No. More like flicking a clitoris I think?
FOMO--->Fear Of Missing Out
i would but i never solidified our friendship (we were like 80% there) while we had class together to begin with. now i wish i reached out to him more knowing what i know now. i dont know if he's gay but i stalk him pretty hard on social mediaand he's never seemed to have with a girl or a guy. but it doesn't matter because im in 12th hes in 11th and im never gonna see him again.😑and a little bit irl
No. More like flicking a clitoris I think?
offended by her legs, offended by the dancers being all black, offended by their berets, offended by the lyrics, nothing but positive comments for Bruno/Coldplaywhat happened
This isn't terribly helpful I'm sure, but I'd wager that a significant part of your self-image/insecurity/how other people perceive you comes down to self-fulfilling prophecy.
I also wouldn't view getting out and doing social stuff to be work, it's more appropriate to view it as just developing a sense of competency or confidence with those situations. I used to be scared of raising my hand in class discussions because I didn't want to risk looking like an idiot, but now that thought barely crosses my mind, because I know I'm not an idiot. That's what it's like, your perspective just shifts. I think developing confidence is always easier than we think, because it's really just the haphazard accumulation of experience over time so we inhabit and know ourselves more. And in a way it's not really work at all, because you're learning how to let go of a burden, so in that way the result isn't exhaustion or frustration but relief.
edit: but yeah those people do sound like dicks.
No. More like flicking a clitoris I think?
so are we expecting gen 7 this year or next
offended by her legs, offended by the dancers being all black, offended by their berets, offended by the lyrics, nothing but positive comments for Bruno/Coldplay
I mean it isn't like this is the first time I've gone out and done something social, and then come back home feeling basically suicidally depressed afterwards.
Pokémon? 2017 or 2018. 2016 should be the year of Pokémon Z, XZ/YZ, or X2/Y2. It depends on what NX is and when 3DS gets replaced, but assuming it happens this year, Gen 7 is likely to be on the next hardware, since I doubt Game Freak would commit to another 2-3 years on the 3DS after something new is out. Black/White were on DS because 3DS wasn't out yet, while Gen 7 will probably start after NX is out.
I didn't think you played Pokémon, so sorry if you meant something else.
Ah, my age is showing. Didn't know that! Wow you're still in high school so umm well you'll be in college this fall I presume, so you'll get to meet lots of new guys!
So many new guys and faces that you will eventually forget about him and wonder why you were into him in the first place.
So yeah, yay college! ��
offended by her legs, offended by the dancers being all black, offended by their berets, offended by the lyrics, nothing but positive comments for Bruno/Coldplay
Because Ratsky failed
Lol i wish there where more people on gaf around my age. But gaf is kinda old and usually people dont use message boards especially if you have to make an account and wait for verification. Also i want to go to college but fuck im going to hate doing all of the college stuff and probably end up arguing with parents and just a done of stress. I have already seen my brother go through it and Im not wanting to go through all of it. But once i get to college i think i would like it more.Ah, my age is showing. Didn't know that! Wow you're still in high school so umm well you'll be in college this fall I presume, so you'll get to meet lots of new guys!
So many new guys and faces that you will eventually forget about him and wonder why you were into him in the first place.
So yeah, yay college! 😁
I'm hoping we get Pokemon Z this year and I hope it fixes the mess that was Gen 6.so are we expecting gen 7 this year or next
You don't understand the emotional journey I've been on today Down. My ship was supposed to happen but I couldn't let it happen. I'm going to go put on some Adele and eat ice cream to comfort my soul.this is the gayest post I've ever seen lmao
Lol i wish there where more people on gaf around my age. But gaf is kinda old
yep. that commercial got me thinking. there's been a 3-4 year gap in between all the gens iirc, so i was thinking maybe it would be this year but I totally forgot about the NX. maybe as a launch title?
Lol i wish there where more people on gaf around my age. But gaf is kinda old and usually people dont use message boards especially if you have to make an account and wait for verification. Also i want to go to college but fuck im going to hate doing all of the college stuff and probably end up arguing with parents and just a done of stress. I have already seen my brother go through it and Im not wanting to go through all of it. But once i get to college i think i would like it more.
Lmao, yeah all you guys are super old (^:
bayo do you want to do the next ot
I was just trying to say that you might be putting a lot of pressure on yourself, which is one factor that can affect a negative result.
Nah, too subtle. But I bet if he made a motion suggestive of a blowjob the more sensitive straights in his company would faint.
how old you say you were again? im 17 but im one of the youngest in my classLol i wish there where more people on gaf around my age. But gaf is kinda old and usually people dont use message boards especially if you have to make an account and wait for verification. Also i want to go to college but fuck im going to hate doing all of the college stuff and probably end up arguing with parents and just a done of stress. I have already seen my brother go through it and Im not wanting to go through all of it. But once i get to college i think i would like it more.
I felt the same at one time. Took a lot of soul-searching to love myself, let alone other people, and as it turns out I have a lot of loveThose are some nice legs. 😋
I would be comfortable letting my SO maybe be with another person if he truly loved that other person, but I can't imagine myself with anyone, let alone multiple ppl.