MrMister said:
I'm so sick of being a goddamn punching bag for this community. The vicious circle continues, and I thought it was over after months of dealing with it. No, if I make one fucking mistake in game, I usually simply disguise it as 'trolling' to my teammates to protect myself from having to admit I made a fucking mistake, a bad side effect of that is that they get salty due to my salt of making a mistake. The key example tonight being casting my ultimate as Witch Slayer on a hero who will undoubtedly die without it. I saw the lifebar drain away on him, I wanted the kill especially after missing the stun point blank, and had a mini-selfish-panic and hit R and clicked him. Afterwards I hear over Mumble shortly "MrMister wtf" and a bunch of 'ooh's, Swiftlame typing in chat "That was bad", I laugh it off and call it trolling them so I don't have to admit the mistake, Swiftlame types "no I'm serious". And of course from there both sides just make it worse, I should've admitted the mistake, would've been easier, but more saltier for me. Either way I'm am fucking done with the goddamn bullshit this community distributes. I can already see the BZM smartass remark post and the Sebulon expectation post, and who knows what else thrown at me.
I want some goddamn REAL TALK. Not jokingly mentioning the phrase, I want some real goddamn talk for once because I am sick of the bullshit we all distribute on a daily basis. What the fuck is going on in HoN-GAF?
The problem is you. Everything perceived bad thing happening to you is entirely under your control and as such is solely at your own fault. This is the first important step for you to realize. Second off, don't be a bitch. No one likes a bitch. This whole post you've just made? You're acting like a bitch. Stop it. I don't understand that you have this expectation you have for how people should treat you. Strip yourself of social self entitlement, because - let's get this straight - past basic humanitarian respect, you don't deserve a god damn thing until you've earned it and you only reap what you sow.
But let's stick to hon from here, and as far as hon goes - you're bad. Another important thing for you to realize. I can understand the desire be accepted as a better player, but why bother trying to pretend to be something you aren't, especially when you can't consistently deliver? Accept the level on which you play, never try to give off the impression that you're anything better - management of self expectation is an important skill, not just for hon but for life. Unrealistic expectations for how a game will go because of how you believe yourself to play will only serve to make both you and other people angry. Performing above expectation is always better than never being able to living up to expectation. Removing yourself from other's expectation also clears you from needed to appease other's expectations of you - focus on playing the game as you do, not how you think others would want you to. I can already see you fixating upon the word 'bad' here too; being able to disassociate connotation with fact is important as well. Being bad at hon is not necessarily a bad thing - on many levels I am bad at hon as well. Everyone that isn't playing at the highest level is in some way bad. By every statistical and practical measure you are a generally sub par player. Nothing personal, just a statement of fact.
This follows directly into the next point, something most people are bad at - the ability to accept legitimate criticism or to accept criticism for what it is. If you do something questionable or downright bad and someone is so kind as to point it out, there are one of two possibilities: It was something questionable or downright bad, or the person is incorrect/misinformed. Let's roll with the former first: TAKE IT IN STRIDE. If someone is pointing it out it's probably because it was just that. Don't make excuses. Don't try to justify. Don't deflect. Accept the mistake, learn from the mistake and move on. Developing a healthy attitude of self deprecation here won't hurt either - it's a great learning tool, a respectable personality trait, and often diffuses both yourself and others in "salty" situations.
If it's the latter, then you need to, again, learn to do something that most people are bad at - BE THE BIGGER MAN. People do what people do, and regardless of where you stand insofar as right and wrong is concerned, you should always strive to be the bigger man in the situation. Ignore the comment, or try to make humor out of the comment. There is almost never cause to get confrontational about something unless their comment was intended to be unnecessarily offensive - and no, small jabs intended to poke fun at you don't count fall into that category. Being able to accept small pokes of fun well is as important as it is to give them in return. Don't let little things get you mangry.
Didn't mean to get overly preachy but I think I fucked that pretty good, and I don't remember where I was planning to end this so I'll cut it here. tl;dr: Stop being a bitch. Manage your expectations. Learn to accept criticism.